I was in a relationship for 3 years. She was a pastors daughter and came to my city for becoming a teacher. She was living with her boyfriend at the time but her parents and Church thought she was living separate from him. We were friends when she was dating him and she would lie to him constantly that she had no contact with me because he was jealous. I always said what is the worst that he was worried about since we are all Christian and would wait till marriage.
She eventually went back home to visit her parents for 3 months(he stayed in my city-so they were not together these 3 months) to work out her relationship with her partner because they had plans to get married but he did not ask her dad for her hand or formally asked her. I did not understand how someone could work out a relationship 800 km away.
So when she was back home the idea was that she would have no contact with me at all but in a few days texts started, emails and then talking for 8 hours in the evening about her relationship and I was trying to see if they could salvage what they had. I asked if he knew we were talking but she said no. I said that if she does not tell him it is a really bad way to work out a relationship and it seemed like cheating to me. She eventually told me that they were also having per-marital sex for over 5 years and just the Church and her parents never knew. Now I understood what he was worried about. He also did not trust her and constantly checked her email and phone to see if we were talking. She did lie to him constantly so he did have reason not to trust her.
I never thought we would ever date because I was convinced they would eventually marry. They did decide to stay friends when she came back and he was to leave to England two weeks after that. Before he left she told me that they had sex several times which upset me because she said they only had per-marital sex before because they were going to get married; but now they were not getting married, and she still had sex with him. He left and we were friends still. Eventually she showed interest in dating me. I was worried because of what she did with him. She said she would never do that to me because I was different and would not tell her what to do. I was wanting to get married eventually and was not interested in just flings and such and told her that. She convinced me of her good intentions but very soon into it she refused to introduce me to her friends or her Church. She said she was not ready.
And over a year passed and she said she was worried her friends would not love me as much as she loves me and that would bother her so that is why she does not introduce me. She said her best friends were back home so there was no point introducing me. I was devastated; I was so hurt that she did not want to introduce me to everyone, the person she said she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. She also did and said so many things that hurt me, confused me and made me question everything. She started dance classes with other men and never asked me to go with her, She went with a girlfriend who was single and they went for the free drop in night to dance the westcoast swing with other men for 3 hours from 9-11pm. After she was finished torturing me emotionally she dumped me and said she was not ready for a serious relationship.
I looked back at the entire time and noticed that she said and did things very early on that hurt me so bad-things that she could not know would hurt me. She hurt me in more ways then everyone in my life combined and seems to enjoy watching me in pain. Like the Devil knowing the unknown, she always knew what to say to devastate and hurt me. She was never kind to me and was always un-empathetic to the degree of a Psychopathic person. I thought she had to be a Psychopath but she seemed even more evil then that. I thought maybe she was possessed but even the possessed have moments of normal function. What if she is the devil. It oddly feels right to me. The knowledge of the unknown. She knew things I never told her. She knew how to twist my faith in God. She tempted me with sex and everything UN-Godly. A Pastors daughter who followed nothing in the Bible at all, who wanted temptations of the flesh constantly, who lied to the Pastor, her father a Pastor, Her Mother and everyone what she was actually doing.
The father of all lies is the Devil. If you do not love your Brother and sister who you can see then you do not love God who you can not see : found in 1 john 4:19-21. I see the Devil when I look at her. I feel many would feel I am crazy to think that. Possessed more likely then the Devil people I feel would think but I saw no good in her. I have met many people and she is the only one who I think this of. People have hurt me but not with such precision and Evil intent;also I see good in others actions. I then question why did I turn my cheek to wickedness to have other cheek struck in the face of such a evil person; Jesus asks me to do this but not to stay in such a horrible situation for so long. I fear me staying for such abuse says little good about me. Interested in what people feel and think as I am still hurt by the torture I put myself through.
She eventually went back home to visit her parents for 3 months(he stayed in my city-so they were not together these 3 months) to work out her relationship with her partner because they had plans to get married but he did not ask her dad for her hand or formally asked her. I did not understand how someone could work out a relationship 800 km away.
So when she was back home the idea was that she would have no contact with me at all but in a few days texts started, emails and then talking for 8 hours in the evening about her relationship and I was trying to see if they could salvage what they had. I asked if he knew we were talking but she said no. I said that if she does not tell him it is a really bad way to work out a relationship and it seemed like cheating to me. She eventually told me that they were also having per-marital sex for over 5 years and just the Church and her parents never knew. Now I understood what he was worried about. He also did not trust her and constantly checked her email and phone to see if we were talking. She did lie to him constantly so he did have reason not to trust her.
I never thought we would ever date because I was convinced they would eventually marry. They did decide to stay friends when she came back and he was to leave to England two weeks after that. Before he left she told me that they had sex several times which upset me because she said they only had per-marital sex before because they were going to get married; but now they were not getting married, and she still had sex with him. He left and we were friends still. Eventually she showed interest in dating me. I was worried because of what she did with him. She said she would never do that to me because I was different and would not tell her what to do. I was wanting to get married eventually and was not interested in just flings and such and told her that. She convinced me of her good intentions but very soon into it she refused to introduce me to her friends or her Church. She said she was not ready.
And over a year passed and she said she was worried her friends would not love me as much as she loves me and that would bother her so that is why she does not introduce me. She said her best friends were back home so there was no point introducing me. I was devastated; I was so hurt that she did not want to introduce me to everyone, the person she said she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. She also did and said so many things that hurt me, confused me and made me question everything. She started dance classes with other men and never asked me to go with her, She went with a girlfriend who was single and they went for the free drop in night to dance the westcoast swing with other men for 3 hours from 9-11pm. After she was finished torturing me emotionally she dumped me and said she was not ready for a serious relationship.
I looked back at the entire time and noticed that she said and did things very early on that hurt me so bad-things that she could not know would hurt me. She hurt me in more ways then everyone in my life combined and seems to enjoy watching me in pain. Like the Devil knowing the unknown, she always knew what to say to devastate and hurt me. She was never kind to me and was always un-empathetic to the degree of a Psychopathic person. I thought she had to be a Psychopath but she seemed even more evil then that. I thought maybe she was possessed but even the possessed have moments of normal function. What if she is the devil. It oddly feels right to me. The knowledge of the unknown. She knew things I never told her. She knew how to twist my faith in God. She tempted me with sex and everything UN-Godly. A Pastors daughter who followed nothing in the Bible at all, who wanted temptations of the flesh constantly, who lied to the Pastor, her father a Pastor, Her Mother and everyone what she was actually doing.
The father of all lies is the Devil. If you do not love your Brother and sister who you can see then you do not love God who you can not see : found in 1 john 4:19-21. I see the Devil when I look at her. I feel many would feel I am crazy to think that. Possessed more likely then the Devil people I feel would think but I saw no good in her. I have met many people and she is the only one who I think this of. People have hurt me but not with such precision and Evil intent;also I see good in others actions. I then question why did I turn my cheek to wickedness to have other cheek struck in the face of such a evil person; Jesus asks me to do this but not to stay in such a horrible situation for so long. I fear me staying for such abuse says little good about me. Interested in what people feel and think as I am still hurt by the torture I put myself through.
