Death used to be my greatest fear. Death is an intricate part of life. If it were not so then there would be no purpose in the cycle that takes place from first breath as a newborn to last breath as an aged and weathered soul. I am not afraid of death anymore. I welcome it when it comes. I conquered that several years ago. However, I am afraid to fail God. I will not know that until my last dying breath.
My question to you:
What is your greatest fear?
I don't fear death, I might be a little uneasy about certain ways that death can occur, but not scared of it. I was reading through 2nd Chronicles tonight, and something that always stands out when reading it, is what it proclaims about the different kinds.
*name of king* did/did not do right in the sight of the Lord.
My greatest fear, is failing to do that which is right in the sight of the Lord.
There are a couple areas where this fear sometimes manifests itself. The biggest, being in a relationship. I'm now engaged, and this comes with a huge amount of responsibility. Now, not only am I responsible for doing right in the sight of the Lord, but I'm also responsible for not leading someone else to do something that is not right in the sight of the Lord.
Some years ago, due to some circumstances that I won't get into, I was put into a father position to my three youngest siblings. The significance of that role weighed heavily on me, and I was very aware of the influence that I had on them. (Not just as a sibling, but that also carries a lot of responsibility)
Then there are others that see me, and what I represent with how I live my life, such as co-workers, and other people I meet. How am I conducting myself?
I have experienced fear that I would in some way fail to do right by them.
The answer, is to keep my sights fixed on Jesus. Looking through Chronicles, you can see that as soon as the kings turned their hearts away from the Lord, the faltered.
I strive with every part of my being to keep him first, and honor the Lord.
So long as I keep doing that, I have nothing else to fear.