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Growing up I was pretty much a trouble maker, often skipped school and if I was there I would be sent to the principal's office, I started having sex at a young age, and I became a drug addict.
Thank God saved me and forgave me even if I didn't deserve it. I repented, He got me out of my addiction, He told me and has showed me He loves me and so I started seeing me the way He sees me. BUT I still have so many things in my life that I need to work on that I did see till guys started pursuing.
First of all I am obese so hardly any guys feel attracted to me but I've had some Christian guys who actually like my personality, the way I talk about God (they have told me) but once they know I dropped out of school, I am still living with my family, I don't have a car, and when something like multiplication or where places of the world are and in the Bible studies they ask me to read out loud and they see I don't read fluently and I don't know things I should've known sense elementary school they friend zone me. The bad decisions I made in the past come back to me.
I've always wanted to get married and have a family but sense am not that attractive and the guys that do give me a chance get turned off with what I mentioned above it began to lower my self-esteem and made me feel undatable and unwanted by men.
Any advice, comments or whatever you'd like to say will be appreciated! Thank you and may God bless you all
Thank God saved me and forgave me even if I didn't deserve it. I repented, He got me out of my addiction, He told me and has showed me He loves me and so I started seeing me the way He sees me. BUT I still have so many things in my life that I need to work on that I did see till guys started pursuing.
First of all I am obese so hardly any guys feel attracted to me but I've had some Christian guys who actually like my personality, the way I talk about God (they have told me) but once they know I dropped out of school, I am still living with my family, I don't have a car, and when something like multiplication or where places of the world are and in the Bible studies they ask me to read out loud and they see I don't read fluently and I don't know things I should've known sense elementary school they friend zone me. The bad decisions I made in the past come back to me.
I've always wanted to get married and have a family but sense am not that attractive and the guys that do give me a chance get turned off with what I mentioned above it began to lower my self-esteem and made me feel undatable and unwanted by men.
Any advice, comments or whatever you'd like to say will be appreciated! Thank you and may God bless you all