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So, to make this as short as possible, I met a girl back in October and everything went great for three months! Almost too perfect in fact, it really scared me how much I liked this girl and how well we clicked on every level! She has everything I've ever wanted or prayed for in a future wife, down to the smallest details. From physical looks, life goals, what kind of family life she wants, her values, the type of ministry she wants to be involved with, etc. She has it all. Things I never thought I would find wrapped up in one person. She says the same thing about me as well. Even from our first date, it wasn't just the usual feeling of "oh this girls pretty hot and she's cool so I think she'd be a fun girlfriend to have". No, I had this overwhelming feeling that whole night and every other one after that like I was walking with my future wife!! We had lots of God talks together and kept him at the center of our friendship and we kept things pure and agreed not too go any further than kissing. We "talked" for three months and both decided we were ready to become an official couple! I made a reservation at a fancy restaurant at a nice resort and was gonna make it official after dinner. We got all dressed up and we're about to leave when she started crying and said we needed to talk... she started crying more and more and was breathing very heavy and said she had never been in this deep with someone before and it was making her really anxious and said she wanted to slow things down. While that probably wasn't the end of the world, it sure felt like it at the time. I was completely blind sided and completely crushed. We still talk, and we still see each other. But it's strictly as friends right now and she says she doesn't know if her feelings will ever change and come back around and she doesn't want me to hope for that...
Now to preface a little bit. She's 21, and I'm 25. She has a year left of college, and I'm not in school. She's only ever had one boyfriend and it only lasted two months, and was her freshmen year of college. I've only been in one relationship, but mine lasted two years and also ended about two years ago. In that relationship I prayed to God about whether He wanted me to be with her or not and for the first couple of weeks leading to our relationship, and for the first five months of it God kept speaking to me to get out and that she wasn't for me. I thought I was going crazy and imagining things and tried to ignore the signs he was giving me and I ended up dragging out a relationship that became toxic when I should have listened to God in the first place. But here's the thing, with this girl it was the exact OPPOSITE! I prayed consistently for three months since the day I started talking to her and felt like I got nothing but good signs and green lights from the Lord about pursuing her! I'd never been more confident that something was a "God thing" before, so when she backed out at the last second it was all the more shocking to me. It's been a month since we stopped "dating" and became strictly freinds, and Ive been fasting and praying consistently since then and still don't feel like God has told me to give her up just yet. I still feel like I keep getting little winks and nudges from Him to be patient and wait on him to work things out in her heart. So here's what I've been praying for and would like prayer for. Ive been praying for a clear undeniable sign for the Lord, something that I couldn't possibly confuse as something I imagined myself, to know if He really does want me to stick it out, if I was right about everything I thought I'd heard from Him, if she really could be the woman He has for me, and to lean on him and keep praying he will work on her heart and bring her back around, or if I should move on?
Any advice, prayers, testimonies and feedback would be greatly appreciated!! I've spoken to many members of my family and church family about this, but I will take all the prayers and advice I can get because I can truly say this is the most difficult thing I've ever gone through. She is absolutely 110% the woman of my dreams and worth the wait. And if she's really just afraid and not ready, or it isn't Gods timing yet, I can wait it out. But if she's not who He has for me I want clear direction either way so I'm not wasting time energy and hope on someone that's not part of His ultimate plan for my life.
Thank you!!!
Now to preface a little bit. She's 21, and I'm 25. She has a year left of college, and I'm not in school. She's only ever had one boyfriend and it only lasted two months, and was her freshmen year of college. I've only been in one relationship, but mine lasted two years and also ended about two years ago. In that relationship I prayed to God about whether He wanted me to be with her or not and for the first couple of weeks leading to our relationship, and for the first five months of it God kept speaking to me to get out and that she wasn't for me. I thought I was going crazy and imagining things and tried to ignore the signs he was giving me and I ended up dragging out a relationship that became toxic when I should have listened to God in the first place. But here's the thing, with this girl it was the exact OPPOSITE! I prayed consistently for three months since the day I started talking to her and felt like I got nothing but good signs and green lights from the Lord about pursuing her! I'd never been more confident that something was a "God thing" before, so when she backed out at the last second it was all the more shocking to me. It's been a month since we stopped "dating" and became strictly freinds, and Ive been fasting and praying consistently since then and still don't feel like God has told me to give her up just yet. I still feel like I keep getting little winks and nudges from Him to be patient and wait on him to work things out in her heart. So here's what I've been praying for and would like prayer for. Ive been praying for a clear undeniable sign for the Lord, something that I couldn't possibly confuse as something I imagined myself, to know if He really does want me to stick it out, if I was right about everything I thought I'd heard from Him, if she really could be the woman He has for me, and to lean on him and keep praying he will work on her heart and bring her back around, or if I should move on?
Any advice, prayers, testimonies and feedback would be greatly appreciated!! I've spoken to many members of my family and church family about this, but I will take all the prayers and advice I can get because I can truly say this is the most difficult thing I've ever gone through. She is absolutely 110% the woman of my dreams and worth the wait. And if she's really just afraid and not ready, or it isn't Gods timing yet, I can wait it out. But if she's not who He has for me I want clear direction either way so I'm not wasting time energy and hope on someone that's not part of His ultimate plan for my life.
Thank you!!!
