I am going to start by saying, I believe everything is in Gods perfect timing. I do not chase or seek things but rather I allow God to put things into my life when he finds it in his timing. I follow and hold steadfast to the following verses:
[h=1]2 Timothy 1:7:For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.[/h][h=3]Ecclesiastes 3:1: There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens[/h]
Allow me to begin now!
I had a truly amazing person come into my life by chance, and lately I have been really struggling. Not struggling in faith but struggling with things in my daily life. This person came into my life by chance, they were suffering from some brokenness that the world had put on them. They had a strong faith, at the surface at least. We quickly and surely became friends as one does with like minded people. I enjoy a lot of the things she did as well, and that became a bonding point for both of us. She had just gotten out of a bad relationship and I had been there before. I sought this not as an opportunity to be more then friends, but as a time to strength and build someone up. This is something I do frequently, I seek to be a conduit for Gods message. I pray that God may use me for his message and the purpose he has for me. I pray that I may have wisdom, more wisdom then I could ever imagine.
I truly want to praise God for what he has done for me and share that with everyone I meet. This woman needed God, she needed to know that someone cared, cared about what she felt, cared about where she is, cared about where she has come from, and I cared. As I care for everyone in a deep way, I have felt the pain of depression and not having someone there when I need someone, just anyone to hear me. As we were friends, I started see how this person faith was on the surface and was not as much within them. She wanted to chase people and things of the world, which we all struggle to find the balance between this world and Gods. She talked to me a couple of times, and I would send her uplifting things. Bibles verses and quotes were the main things I would send her. We would talk for a little bit, less then a day and she would respond any longer. I took it more of a message from God to just let things have their time, let her reflect upon the words that I felt God wanted me to say and to send.
As I gave it time, I saw that she began to struggle more and more with the pressure of the world. She messages me one night and said these words to me: "Do you think its bad that I just wish I would not wake up? That I just want to float away in my sleep" I have struggled with suicide personal myself, and in people I love dearly. I told her that God has a purpose that she is worthy of so much in this life, and she has the chance everyday to impact someone. We talked for awhile and thought it was great, she was opening up, maybe I had the chance to impact her life, and then she quits responding again. She starts back with the things of this world, trying to chase her ex boyfriend who was someone who belittled her faith. The faith that I was trying through God to build up, I wanted her to feel beautiful, and not from me but from God.
I prayed and thought so much upon this. I felt my heart telling me that we could not be friends, and I felt God telling me to let go, that she was toxic. I did what I felt convicted on, I let her go. She would only message me when she wanted uplifting or peace, yet she wouldn't seek it for her self. When I needed uplifting no one was there including her. I know God has perfect timing, and If I felt God wanted me to stay I would have.
Rejection is one of the most painful things, when you have the answers someone needs and yet they chase those who do not care for them or are not good for them. I have peace in my heart, as I did what I could and I truly wanted her to have the best life. We can't force people to love us, to accept us, to hear our words, or to follow Christ. We can only plant small seeds, and hope they grow in someones life. I am many things in life, but I am selfless and I will let someone go if they need to grow themselves. I would have done anything for her, but she needed to do it herself.
[h=1]2 Timothy 1:7:For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.[/h][h=3]Ecclesiastes 3:1: There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens[/h]
Allow me to begin now!
I had a truly amazing person come into my life by chance, and lately I have been really struggling. Not struggling in faith but struggling with things in my daily life. This person came into my life by chance, they were suffering from some brokenness that the world had put on them. They had a strong faith, at the surface at least. We quickly and surely became friends as one does with like minded people. I enjoy a lot of the things she did as well, and that became a bonding point for both of us. She had just gotten out of a bad relationship and I had been there before. I sought this not as an opportunity to be more then friends, but as a time to strength and build someone up. This is something I do frequently, I seek to be a conduit for Gods message. I pray that God may use me for his message and the purpose he has for me. I pray that I may have wisdom, more wisdom then I could ever imagine.
I truly want to praise God for what he has done for me and share that with everyone I meet. This woman needed God, she needed to know that someone cared, cared about what she felt, cared about where she is, cared about where she has come from, and I cared. As I care for everyone in a deep way, I have felt the pain of depression and not having someone there when I need someone, just anyone to hear me. As we were friends, I started see how this person faith was on the surface and was not as much within them. She wanted to chase people and things of the world, which we all struggle to find the balance between this world and Gods. She talked to me a couple of times, and I would send her uplifting things. Bibles verses and quotes were the main things I would send her. We would talk for a little bit, less then a day and she would respond any longer. I took it more of a message from God to just let things have their time, let her reflect upon the words that I felt God wanted me to say and to send.
As I gave it time, I saw that she began to struggle more and more with the pressure of the world. She messages me one night and said these words to me: "Do you think its bad that I just wish I would not wake up? That I just want to float away in my sleep" I have struggled with suicide personal myself, and in people I love dearly. I told her that God has a purpose that she is worthy of so much in this life, and she has the chance everyday to impact someone. We talked for awhile and thought it was great, she was opening up, maybe I had the chance to impact her life, and then she quits responding again. She starts back with the things of this world, trying to chase her ex boyfriend who was someone who belittled her faith. The faith that I was trying through God to build up, I wanted her to feel beautiful, and not from me but from God.
I prayed and thought so much upon this. I felt my heart telling me that we could not be friends, and I felt God telling me to let go, that she was toxic. I did what I felt convicted on, I let her go. She would only message me when she wanted uplifting or peace, yet she wouldn't seek it for her self. When I needed uplifting no one was there including her. I know God has perfect timing, and If I felt God wanted me to stay I would have.
Rejection is one of the most painful things, when you have the answers someone needs and yet they chase those who do not care for them or are not good for them. I have peace in my heart, as I did what I could and I truly wanted her to have the best life. We can't force people to love us, to accept us, to hear our words, or to follow Christ. We can only plant small seeds, and hope they grow in someones life. I am many things in life, but I am selfless and I will let someone go if they need to grow themselves. I would have done anything for her, but she needed to do it herself.
pray for her to recognize that only God can satisfy that love and that she will stop chasing after the wrong people..let go but don't give up