Hi Katy, reminding me of Mary Magdalene, do you know why Jesus said that what she did would be preached with His message: When She anointed Jesus for His burial? And that Jesus said of her, "One thing is needful and Mary has chosen that good part, that will not be taken from her." "Whoever is forgiven much Loves much." The love she had for the Lord was encouragement to Him on His journey to the cross. I understand the trouble of putting away your divided spirit. I have one, America has one, The one thing needful, in Paul's word's (another forgiven much) "Forgetting what is behind I go on." I would make my confession also but mine is so bad that it would make yours look bad, and also my humor still needs help, but you may find glimpses of my confession on posts here. If anyone is jealous of you being forgiven much, be reminded it will not be taken from you. Your confession is part of your healing Compliments to the Chief Musician on your behalf.