You found the one true Lord. It is Jesus.
Continue seeking Him and believe... have faith you will get your rewards.
sometimes we dont get what we want in this temporal world but what He wants for us
even if it is hard at first in the long run the spiritual rewards out weigh the physical ones any day
but keep praying for His will in your life and from your posts it looks like you want out of Communist China
and you are looking to get married
i will be honest
it is hard to understand you very well as an english speaker
it sounded like you were looking for someone in america or england
pray on it because God might have someone closer than you think