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WELL, cc i have a bestfreind,....... no scracth that i have a good 50 bestfreinds lol but there is one that stands out from the rest of them and i need your imput on this, im sure many of you have one of these or have had one
im 16 and i live in St.louis, and im a senior (skipped a grade and a half n case your wondering)
shes 16 and lives in kansas city, and a junior shes four hours away,
but we met on a website, and have been talking since then,
and what was nice was that, she came after me, (that may have been because back then on that website my pic was a shirtless one,) but even still when she came after me it wasnt like other girls, she wanted to get to know me,
most other girls wanted to meet and "touch and agree" lol
but moving on, shes everything i want, and even has knowledge of God, i have yet to find out that shes saved but her and her mom helped me when i told them i could see and feel spirits and was attacked by some,
i completly love talking to her, beacause, not only can i tell her anything, but when i do she listens, she answers, and when she talks its not a head full of hot air type thing she actually wants to help me, whether shes showing tough love or not, lol
we can talk on the phone, for hours all though i wish i could call her more often, but when we talk its not dirty we may flirt but, never goes far, we always have educated talks, no matter the subject and we wanna know whats going on with one another all the time,
the love i have for her is innocent and vice versa, i beleive that may be beacause we havent seen one another,
im freinds with her mother also me and her mother have talked and she likes to joke with me and her on the phone,
but where i messed up is, shes been in my corner for 3 years already, shes been there for me whenever i needed her even when i had a young lady that i thought and truly beleived that i could never recover from, and vice versa, and ive always liked her no matter who i was with and i knew she liked me
but due to a little devil named insecurity i gained from past relationships and the loss of the feeling i thought love was,
i couldnt trust her, heck, i couldnt trust any girl for that matter, and, yet i was still open with her about everything else, she knows me, and i know her, (i know we still have yet to grow and learn more about one another) but i know who she is now,
were both virgins we also have many of the same views on life, and God even,
shes so diffrent than the others
she doesnt change who she is, based on her emotions
we've even argued before, yet she still stands firm in her love, for me, as i have learned to do for her, and i feel like a jerk for that, that she was there the whole time but i never loved her the way i shouldve she doubts that i will try to come see her or even pay for her to come see me, and since she has surpassed my expectations and doubts i will do the same for her she loves me for me, she makes me feel handsome, when i used to feel that i was the ugly duck till' middle school then i became an uglier duck, lol she makes me feel safe, and i can share my faith with her, lol im bringin her to church with me to, shes just flat out amazing and everytime i see her its like, "God youve gotta be kidding me?" "this is for me?" (faints) she loves me?" "look at her!?!" shes wayyy to much for me, yet it feels so wonderful talking to her, wow the slang term for this is called "sprung" but, i know thats not it, its not even "puppy love" its "love" and like i say often "she may not be here in my life but i will enjoy her as long as shes here"
but my point in this is, i wanna pray about it, because, emotions have often led me the wrong way and also theres a prayer that ive prayed since i was a freshman in highschool,
it was "i pray that i come into everything God has for me, when i reach my senior year" and i would pray that even during the time that i would deny God with my life, but yet, God is sooooo sooosoososooooo GOOOOD he still answered it,
and so many doors have opened up in my life opputunities and blessings, gifts, hes changing my life, but i wonder, is she a door that i can open and walk into knowing its God?
im 16 and i live in St.louis, and im a senior (skipped a grade and a half n case your wondering)
shes 16 and lives in kansas city, and a junior shes four hours away,
but we met on a website, and have been talking since then,
and what was nice was that, she came after me, (that may have been because back then on that website my pic was a shirtless one,) but even still when she came after me it wasnt like other girls, she wanted to get to know me,
most other girls wanted to meet and "touch and agree" lol
but moving on, shes everything i want, and even has knowledge of God, i have yet to find out that shes saved but her and her mom helped me when i told them i could see and feel spirits and was attacked by some,
i completly love talking to her, beacause, not only can i tell her anything, but when i do she listens, she answers, and when she talks its not a head full of hot air type thing she actually wants to help me, whether shes showing tough love or not, lol
we can talk on the phone, for hours all though i wish i could call her more often, but when we talk its not dirty we may flirt but, never goes far, we always have educated talks, no matter the subject and we wanna know whats going on with one another all the time,
the love i have for her is innocent and vice versa, i beleive that may be beacause we havent seen one another,
im freinds with her mother also me and her mother have talked and she likes to joke with me and her on the phone,
but where i messed up is, shes been in my corner for 3 years already, shes been there for me whenever i needed her even when i had a young lady that i thought and truly beleived that i could never recover from, and vice versa, and ive always liked her no matter who i was with and i knew she liked me
but due to a little devil named insecurity i gained from past relationships and the loss of the feeling i thought love was,
i couldnt trust her, heck, i couldnt trust any girl for that matter, and, yet i was still open with her about everything else, she knows me, and i know her, (i know we still have yet to grow and learn more about one another) but i know who she is now,
were both virgins we also have many of the same views on life, and God even,
shes so diffrent than the others
she doesnt change who she is, based on her emotions
we've even argued before, yet she still stands firm in her love, for me, as i have learned to do for her, and i feel like a jerk for that, that she was there the whole time but i never loved her the way i shouldve she doubts that i will try to come see her or even pay for her to come see me, and since she has surpassed my expectations and doubts i will do the same for her she loves me for me, she makes me feel handsome, when i used to feel that i was the ugly duck till' middle school then i became an uglier duck, lol she makes me feel safe, and i can share my faith with her, lol im bringin her to church with me to, shes just flat out amazing and everytime i see her its like, "God youve gotta be kidding me?" "this is for me?" (faints) she loves me?" "look at her!?!" shes wayyy to much for me, yet it feels so wonderful talking to her, wow the slang term for this is called "sprung" but, i know thats not it, its not even "puppy love" its "love" and like i say often "she may not be here in my life but i will enjoy her as long as shes here"
but my point in this is, i wanna pray about it, because, emotions have often led me the wrong way and also theres a prayer that ive prayed since i was a freshman in highschool,
it was "i pray that i come into everything God has for me, when i reach my senior year" and i would pray that even during the time that i would deny God with my life, but yet, God is sooooo sooosoososooooo GOOOOD he still answered it,
and so many doors have opened up in my life opputunities and blessings, gifts, hes changing my life, but i wonder, is she a door that i can open and walk into knowing its God?
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