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Okay, so I don't date. Ever. I get asked out, sure, but I'm really good at immediately placing guys into the "friend zone" and I make sure they know it. I feel like I've prayed about it enough that I'll just know when I finally meet the guy God has for me.
Well, here's my sickening dilemma. (I'll start from the beginning.) Last year I moved and began going to a new church. My first time at the church, my attention was drawn to this guy--for story purposes we will call him Brian. Now, I wasn't attracted to him in the least, there was just something about him. I felt almost like I knew him--or was supposed to know him--or something. I can't fully explain it. Over time, I began to feel attracted to him and I longed to get to know him better. Our paths crossed regularly as we shared friends, but we never became more than acquaintances. Through church we wound up in the same bible study and I learned more about him, but still no real friendship developed. I learned that Brian liked (maybe even loved?) a girl in another state and was going to visit her, hopeful that they'd develop a strong relationship in person and he'd move there to be with her. I felt strangely saddened by this--even though I didn't know him well--and was determined to disconnect any feelings for him.
I succeeded (or so I thought) in moving on from Brian. I learned that things hadn't worked out as he had planned with the other girl, but still I stayed neutral to him as he planned on moving away regardless. Even without the "crush" factor, something in me continued to feel a connection to him. I pray for him regularly (as I do a lot of my acquaintances), and creep his facebook on occasion to see what he's up to. (But I do this to a lot of people! Haha!)
Anyways, I don't recall ever having a conversation with Brian that lasted over five minutes. Just the general "Hey, how are you?" "Good, you?" "Great!" kind of deal... or random facebook comments. Recently, my connection towards him grew really strong again. Again, I felt like I was supposed to know him. This time, I just sent up a quick prayer to God that was along the lines of, "God, if you want me to get to know him... then make it clear."
Four days later I get online to find a message from him asking me to grab coffee soon. (Keep in mind I haven't actually spoke to Brian since July, other than a single facebook comment that complimented him on leading worship a few weeks ago.) I hadn't told anyone about my growing attraction towards the guy either. Literally, no one knew. I don't like to date so I'm not one to share my feelings even if I really like a guy. I want it to be all God, no outward influences.
The randomness of his invite makes me certain that it's from God. But I can't help but wonder... is this a date? I don't really know how coffee works. Haha! I'm excited and nervous at the same time, but do guys see coffee as a date or is a "testing the waters" type of friendship hang-out thing? Not gonna lie, I would love for this to be a date... but... I don't want to think it is when it's not? AHHHH. Why is coffee so complicated?!
Well, here's my sickening dilemma. (I'll start from the beginning.) Last year I moved and began going to a new church. My first time at the church, my attention was drawn to this guy--for story purposes we will call him Brian. Now, I wasn't attracted to him in the least, there was just something about him. I felt almost like I knew him--or was supposed to know him--or something. I can't fully explain it. Over time, I began to feel attracted to him and I longed to get to know him better. Our paths crossed regularly as we shared friends, but we never became more than acquaintances. Through church we wound up in the same bible study and I learned more about him, but still no real friendship developed. I learned that Brian liked (maybe even loved?) a girl in another state and was going to visit her, hopeful that they'd develop a strong relationship in person and he'd move there to be with her. I felt strangely saddened by this--even though I didn't know him well--and was determined to disconnect any feelings for him.
I succeeded (or so I thought) in moving on from Brian. I learned that things hadn't worked out as he had planned with the other girl, but still I stayed neutral to him as he planned on moving away regardless. Even without the "crush" factor, something in me continued to feel a connection to him. I pray for him regularly (as I do a lot of my acquaintances), and creep his facebook on occasion to see what he's up to. (But I do this to a lot of people! Haha!)
Anyways, I don't recall ever having a conversation with Brian that lasted over five minutes. Just the general "Hey, how are you?" "Good, you?" "Great!" kind of deal... or random facebook comments. Recently, my connection towards him grew really strong again. Again, I felt like I was supposed to know him. This time, I just sent up a quick prayer to God that was along the lines of, "God, if you want me to get to know him... then make it clear."
Four days later I get online to find a message from him asking me to grab coffee soon. (Keep in mind I haven't actually spoke to Brian since July, other than a single facebook comment that complimented him on leading worship a few weeks ago.) I hadn't told anyone about my growing attraction towards the guy either. Literally, no one knew. I don't like to date so I'm not one to share my feelings even if I really like a guy. I want it to be all God, no outward influences.
The randomness of his invite makes me certain that it's from God. But I can't help but wonder... is this a date? I don't really know how coffee works. Haha! I'm excited and nervous at the same time, but do guys see coffee as a date or is a "testing the waters" type of friendship hang-out thing? Not gonna lie, I would love for this to be a date... but... I don't want to think it is when it's not? AHHHH. Why is coffee so complicated?!