I posted this in the prayer requests forum, but I thought it'll be cool if I posted here as well. Hope this doesn't break the rules I accepted when joining the site. I need advice in this particular relationship I'm in.
Since I started my classes last year, I meet this certain girl that, overtime, I've grown attached to. We became good friends and eventually close to be considered a relationship beyond a friendship. I really like her. Texting each other, going on dates, holding hands. The good stuff...
Then that's where problems arises. My mind was drawn away from God and I allowed my deceitful heart to lead. I began to constantly think about her to a point where my joy was based on her happiness. If she was feeling depressed, I would feel the same, etc. This was going on for almost 6 months.
It wasn't until recently that the Holy Spirit reminded where my place was and who I am in Christ. I was able to redirect mind, but my heart is on the fence. The bible says that my heart and mind are suppose to one with the Holy Spirit, and yet, my heart has reminded me of my strong feelings I have for her.
Lately, as much as it pains me, I've been treating her as a friend, hoping that my feelings can return back before the attachment started. However, I feel as though this cannot happen because of all that has happened. That my choices are to remain in this relationship and ignore God or lose her completely and deal with the loss. I also feel that she's starting to catch onto this as well.
She's an awesome person and is definitely someone that doesn't deserve to be hurt. It was my fault that I let this get as far as it should.
Before I end this thread with my question, I must add that she's Muslim...yeah. Talk about a big twist in the climax of a story. She's knows I'm Christian too and totally accepts that. How do you like them apples??
What should I do here?