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Hi. I thought I would share with everyone in here my perspective on my "wife" and how I live for her so that maybe it can help others with their "wifes" and "husbands". I put wife in quotations because I am still single to date but have learned how to live rather comfortably with it. I was never single in my life starting from the age of 14 up until just nine months ago. I always was with multiple women or had a girlfriend who I treated like crap and cheated on. But when I repented because I looked in the mirror "the word" and saw what I was and how little value I had on anything but staying with the topic lets focus on how little value I had for a lady I changed my ways. I now am able to visualize to myself my wife I will have even if she is not physically manifested yet and how I want to live for her now. I want to show her my Godliness in my relationship for her now. Such as staying abstinent. I have been abstinent for nine months now! Never have I been before but I know one day once I meet my wife the one I am saving myself for she will see what she means to me by my saving the gift of purity for her now while I still yet to have even of met her. I do not check out women with my eyes in a lustful manner no more. If I do have wondering eyes at a foolish moment I chide myself and quit doing it. Why do I do this? Because I know my wife would disapprove of that behavior as she should, being a lady and all. I do not keep a huge roster of women that I have close friendships with and spend hours talking to them all and treating them as a selection. I realize to myself that I do not want my wife to be picked out of a group of women that I was putting under scrutiny. I keep light social friendships with them if I have intrest in one I may have a more serious friendship with them but I do not date per say. I believe in courting a lady now. Because my wife will be able to know when I ask to advance our friendship to a more serious level (courting)it is with intent to marry not to test drive her. So to all my single brother and sisters out there what I am offering is to look through the lens that your future wife or husbands will be looking through when they meet you and reliaze that even if you are lonely at times or just because you feel a quick flame of attraction for someone that you must treat it all with proper care for your wife or husband. Because even now though they are still in the process of becoming physically manifested in your life are being affected by every decision you make. I hope this could help some of you potentially better stand against the trials of being single and not having that special someone physically in your life yet. God Bless.
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