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Hello friends,
I just wanted to ask you to say a prayer of thanksgiving for me today. From my other threads you know that its been a devastating series of months since my divorce and all the circumstances surrounding it. Anyway, today is an anniversary. For those who have not experienced what it is to be in an abusive relationship it may sound a bit silly but bare with me
During the time period where my x-husband was doing everything he could to "keep me in line" he threatened that if I left him I wouldn't make it "x" months. He warned that I wasn't capable of taking care of myself or our children. That I would just quit functioning out of being overwhelmed by life. That I couldn't make it without him to protect me from myself. Well, despite his best efforts to break me down, today is "x" months. I've made it. Correction: God and I have made it.
While I would like to believe that his words have no impact on me, I have realized it will probably take me years before I'm completely whole and healed from his abuse. But today is a step. I didn't self-destruct. I didn't lose my job or lose my home. I didn't give in to the devastation of what has happened and "fall apart". Today is the first of what I pray will be many "rebuttals" to declare that his lies are lies and for the rest of my days on this earth, God is the only one who I will allow to tell me who I am and who I will be. Thanks for "listening". God is so very good.
I just wanted to ask you to say a prayer of thanksgiving for me today. From my other threads you know that its been a devastating series of months since my divorce and all the circumstances surrounding it. Anyway, today is an anniversary. For those who have not experienced what it is to be in an abusive relationship it may sound a bit silly but bare with me
During the time period where my x-husband was doing everything he could to "keep me in line" he threatened that if I left him I wouldn't make it "x" months. He warned that I wasn't capable of taking care of myself or our children. That I would just quit functioning out of being overwhelmed by life. That I couldn't make it without him to protect me from myself. Well, despite his best efforts to break me down, today is "x" months. I've made it. Correction: God and I have made it.While I would like to believe that his words have no impact on me, I have realized it will probably take me years before I'm completely whole and healed from his abuse. But today is a step. I didn't self-destruct. I didn't lose my job or lose my home. I didn't give in to the devastation of what has happened and "fall apart". Today is the first of what I pray will be many "rebuttals" to declare that his lies are lies and for the rest of my days on this earth, God is the only one who I will allow to tell me who I am and who I will be. Thanks for "listening". God is so very good.
