Pray God leads one.
I dreamt once jesus was talking to me in dream and said he want be my match maker and that he have some one compatible and match for me.
I placed a profile and picture on date site but one must be so cautious.
Lots trolling and some only want to have casual fling and sex despite what you are "looking for" clearly states that is "not you".
Also when some one dooes write they may say "hello" but to get past that first word exchange where one asks "the basics" and to establish a connection of some type can be difficult.
surviving.
try feel better and walk my shadow i shadowed with my full pride of my being.
Try brush hair and even dress and put make up on once a fortnight.
( i do not go out much to movies etc as do not have assessed my money ) also when i have gone out to shopping centres i was not treated so nice by some people maybe because of a few woman who slandered , lied etc.
I have been having contact with some one on off for over a year.
He introduced me to catholic church but my main/true son was not so welcome... because of time stolen...
We have had "online" contact one might say but not in person as such.
Not sure where we stand as action speaks louder ... and nothing seems to happen.
years go... month after moth week after week....
Last time we had contact i said no to him because he thought i swap main , a true son working holic look bad but is good just swap for some one who look and feel good but is bad.
My answer was never.
I feel very disappointed.
I only have one in who i am and humble your soul how proud i am of who i am in this.
If I am to have spouse he must not be with those who stole my time etc and im in court with as they are crime ,
(they are pretty populour and well known (became that by cheating and stealing)and even attend church cover up crime and surgery) .
He could not be abusive and then say he is "dominant".Difference between abuse and dominance.
He would have to love a
nd accept me for who and all i am not "swap son" arrogantly or be jealous i make more money or better some areas.
and he would have accept he not to shadow my true son/main because another look like surgery doll steal my time and eon and take credit for my hard work and etc.
Understand each other.
I just not found any one nice because so many want betray you.
Even christian men.
So much money involved and so much involved i cant begin explain here even those normally pros may accept get paid off.
My actions may be try keep trust /faith that there are good laons that would not betray and steal and etc.
Brush hair and dress less ugly (despite not have many clothes)
"doll up with make up maybe once a week" to try keep physical attractiveness as well as pray and be nice in my spirit and intellectual labour to keep my inner beauty alive if not in body as am shadowed then at least in reality as God can see what humans can not .
Maybe try site again.
But be very cautious trolls or those want flings etc.