I would join a group but I don't think the priest guy at the church or my parents would be ok with that because the priest doesn't really like me because I sort of ruined his bible which apparently was worth a lot and I called him quite a few nasty words and I told my parents that I hated god and they didn't react well to that and they refuse to take me to church until Im good enough for it. idk. but I do write a lot to kind of deal with stuff but writing can be very solitary and its a different type of help to actually talking to somebody I guess