Hi Levichevett,
It's normal to feel the way you are right now, as an adolescent, you're still developing emotionally. You need a lot of nurturing as well as wise counsel at this stage in your life. This is a time for you to grow as a person, to learn to control your own emotions, and to solve your own problems.
First, have you ever tried depending on God? Whatever you are feeling right now, whether it is sadness or anger, tell God about it first. Go to God and see what He has to say in the Bible about our emotions. I will post some scripture verses below related to anger as well as depression here.
Also, you may also want to start a journal, and begin writing down your own emotions, and what you are going through the day. Ask yourself, why do you feel this way, and should you feel this way? How can I solve this problem? Reflect over your own thoughts and think about the situation. After thinking about it yourself, see if you can solve your own problems. You will learn how to take care of yourself without depending on others for everything. However, there is a time, that we should depend on others, when we need guidance to problems we can't solve.
If you feel like you are still troubled or conflicted in your soul, find someone you can talk to, to share your problem so that they can help you. Maybe a guidance counselor at school, a good friend, or an older mentor from church. Your brother is just one person, but it is also good to have even more. As it says in the Bible, for many "plans fail when there is no counsel, but with many advisers they succeed" (Proverbs 15:22). You need to walk in the path of godly counsel from Christians. Do you go to church? Find the youth pastor or a trusted elder to talk to.
Lastly, your brother loves you a lot, and you will get better. I think he is learning a lot through you about what young people go through, and it will help him as to how he should raise his children one day. So, don't think this way about yourself. Remember, God created you for a reason, He loves you, and as good plan for your life.
Scripture Verses:
Anger
James 1:19-20
“Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, for man’s anger does not bring about the righteous life that God desires.”
Proverbs 29:11
“A fool gives full vent to his anger, but a wise man keeps himself under control.”
Ecclesiastes 7:9
“Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools.”
Proverbs 15:1
“A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.”
Psalm 4:4
“In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent.”
Depression
Psalm 42:11
“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.”
Psalm 54:4
“Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.”
Philippians 4:8
“Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.”
Jeremiah 29:11
“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.’”
And whenever you feel depress, listen to God's music! He lifts you up~
Isaiah 40:31
But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.
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- MarvelousLight