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I'm really pissed of rn so I probably shouldn't be writing this but oh well. The other day I bought some drugs and that and I did have a bit of weed but I felt really bad about it later cos I promised my brother I was quiting all that. So today I was in my room with my brother and I told him about it and asked him to get rid of the stuff. That bit was going great. But then my stepdad overheard us and he decided to come in and start yelling at me. It was the most pointless argument ever. First of all it was a private conversation between me and my bro. I trust him enough to tell him stuff like this. Don't really wanna tell stuff to a guy who's just gonna get mad at me for it. I mean be mad that I bought them but I was asking for help >_< being angry over it sorta makes me want to hide it from him even more then I already am. I am so glad my brother was there honestly my stepdad would have probably hit me if he wasn't he was so mad. And it just stresses me out that he's so angry all the time. Like if he just calmed down and treated me like a normal human being then maybe I could have a decent conversation with him that doesn't involve us just screaming at each other. It's like he thinks what he's doing is being a father but it ain't I hate him I'm scared of him I want him to just leave me alone forever and ik that ain't how a father treats a kid so he should stop it. And now I really want a cig cos I'm frustrated but I'm meant to be quiting that to so yay life's so great I'm glad I get to live it