After questioning faith and beliefs , it all dawned to me that I didn't choose to believe what I believed because it is true, I chose to believe it, because of family and societal factors I was raised in made me to accept it as the one true way.
I'm now taking a scientific approach towards the truth, I didn't depart from Christianity, Christianity departed from me as I searched more and more.
I didn't immediately drop my faith, It just started out by with me having existential questions and thoughts and later at some point on the way I decided to drop it and take a neutral stance. That's when I left religion, the reasoning behind that was if I still kept my beliefs and searched for the truth then I'll have a bias and mental barricades set.
So I had to 'de-program' myself, (essentially I withdrew myself from all christian doctrines, beliefs and biblical worldview) it was a hard thing to do, but it occured in stages, I didn't associate with any religion what so ever, it did feel liberating and I saw the world in a whole new way, and then I decided to take a scientific based approach and head wherever the evidence leads me to. If it leads me back to my faith then so be it, if it leads me to somewhere else then so be it.
Just to clarify ,I didn't search to disprove or prove the bible. I wasn't mad at God or 'deceived by evil doctrines' or left the religion so I could sin or what not. It was just an innocent search for the truth , about life, existential questions, spirituality, is there a God or gods etc.
I saw lots of things that didn't fit what I used to believe in, I saw the errors in the bible, I saw what things I never knew about (Just to name a few) things like Extra Terrestrials, Reincarnation, Real age of the Universe. That which you can't criticize controls you. Now that I look at Now that I'm a freethinker, and true to myself. I was able to truly see and admit to all the attrocities and evil by Yahweh in the old testament, the logical issue with the problem of evil, and his mode of punishment.
I've also decided that if infact the 'God' of the universe turns out to be the Hebrew deity Yahweh, I wouldn't give him that admiration, because I don't root tyrannical, cruel and narcissistic figures of authority. In the same way I wouldn't stand for Hitler simply because he was a figure of authority.
IN SUMMARY: Questioning my faith has lead me to a whole new perspective, the bible isn't innerant , there is more to life and the universe that you are unaware about, Truth is out there, and I encourage everyone to actually do their research.
I'm now taking a scientific approach towards the truth, I didn't depart from Christianity, Christianity departed from me as I searched more and more.
I didn't immediately drop my faith, It just started out by with me having existential questions and thoughts and later at some point on the way I decided to drop it and take a neutral stance. That's when I left religion, the reasoning behind that was if I still kept my beliefs and searched for the truth then I'll have a bias and mental barricades set.
So I had to 'de-program' myself, (essentially I withdrew myself from all christian doctrines, beliefs and biblical worldview) it was a hard thing to do, but it occured in stages, I didn't associate with any religion what so ever, it did feel liberating and I saw the world in a whole new way, and then I decided to take a scientific based approach and head wherever the evidence leads me to. If it leads me back to my faith then so be it, if it leads me to somewhere else then so be it.
Just to clarify ,I didn't search to disprove or prove the bible. I wasn't mad at God or 'deceived by evil doctrines' or left the religion so I could sin or what not. It was just an innocent search for the truth , about life, existential questions, spirituality, is there a God or gods etc.
I saw lots of things that didn't fit what I used to believe in, I saw the errors in the bible, I saw what things I never knew about (Just to name a few) things like Extra Terrestrials, Reincarnation, Real age of the Universe. That which you can't criticize controls you. Now that I look at Now that I'm a freethinker, and true to myself. I was able to truly see and admit to all the attrocities and evil by Yahweh in the old testament, the logical issue with the problem of evil, and his mode of punishment.
I've also decided that if infact the 'God' of the universe turns out to be the Hebrew deity Yahweh, I wouldn't give him that admiration, because I don't root tyrannical, cruel and narcissistic figures of authority. In the same way I wouldn't stand for Hitler simply because he was a figure of authority.
IN SUMMARY: Questioning my faith has lead me to a whole new perspective, the bible isn't innerant , there is more to life and the universe that you are unaware about, Truth is out there, and I encourage everyone to actually do their research.
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