Pamela Anderson? She's got NOTHING on this girl. She's a much more kind and respectable person, and way prettier to boot. I don't have the time nor the means to incorporate a substantial excersize regimen into my life, either. I'm a straight-A student, and I don't care to learn about trades like welding or accounting. I'm studying hard, and doing well, but there's just this big freaking gap in my life where relationships would normally go in anyone else's. God never designed men to be alone.
Also, I know that beauty isn't everything. We're both decent people, that I know. But as far as interests go, I'm just a huge nerd, so I'm practically doomed in that note. That's why I hate myself. I only fit in with outcasts, for whom I don't care deeply. I hate who I am because I just don't fit in with the people that I care about the most (heck, it's even hard to fit in with my own family, much less my classmates). I guess I just wish that I was born a different person. One that was never introduced to video games, wasn't homeschooled until he was 10, and had boundless confidence around other people.
Now, what can I do to change myself? Suicide wouldn't be so bad if I could be with God afterward, but I don't think that would be the case. Aaaand... that's all I can think of. All I can think of, and it's impossible anyway. Dang it.
Also, I know that beauty isn't everything. We're both decent people, that I know. But as far as interests go, I'm just a huge nerd, so I'm practically doomed in that note. That's why I hate myself. I only fit in with outcasts, for whom I don't care deeply. I hate who I am because I just don't fit in with the people that I care about the most (heck, it's even hard to fit in with my own family, much less my classmates). I guess I just wish that I was born a different person. One that was never introduced to video games, wasn't homeschooled until he was 10, and had boundless confidence around other people.
Now, what can I do to change myself? Suicide wouldn't be so bad if I could be with God afterward, but I don't think that would be the case. Aaaand... that's all I can think of. All I can think of, and it's impossible anyway. Dang it.