Nothing I enjoy is useful to anyone, or worth doing. I have few friends. I'll never have a girlfriend because I'm such a coward. I'm horribly arrogant. I've wasted my childhood playing video games and playing piano, which I dropped after ten years. I wanted to be a zoologist, which is a useless occupation. Studying animals never helped anyone. I've worked too hard. Everyone expects things of me that I'll never be able to accomplish. I fight with my mom, who only ever wants what's best for me. She wants me to grow up, but I know I can't. I'm weak, and I wanted to be stronger, but I know that that's useless too. Strength only lets you live longer, and the longer you live, the more you have to do. And I don't want to do anthing but die and be done with it. Can anyone suggest a painless way to go? I'm scared to die, but I don't know what else to do. Please help me in any way you can.