proply not going to get a very good response to this but i just really dont no any i used to be so for god and like ok maybe oh idk how to explain but basically I've prity much lost faith idk like i just dont no what i believe anymore its just like im really strugling with thoughts of suicide and i guess they have taken over my thinking where i used to think about God or pray i now think about ending things or plan how i will do it. instead of going to church i stay home and sleep because i was up till a crazy hr of the morring planing and cutting or trying to fight the urge to cut i prayed to god for the first time in along time the other day... i felt nothing nothing at all i was alone i dont think i believe god is there anymore part of me thinks maybe he is there but not for me ive seen what he can do for others ive seen him change many lives atchly i do believe hes there but not for me hes not near me part of this maybe me pushing him away but idk i dont desurve his love. i feel so far away from him i no alot of you will tell me that if i look he will be there and if i ask for his help he will help and ask him to forgive me sins and so on idk anymore its been 2 yrs since i gave my life to the lord in those to years ive turned back to self harm ive spent alot of time thinking about suicde ive started to fear leaving the house i dont see how going back to god will solve a thing if it wasnt for having to tell mum i was a christain i might not have gone back to self harm i dont see how anything will be fixed by me going back to him since i stoped going to church mum seems to want to talk to me more she hated that i was going to church, whats the point in going back to him i cant see it changing anything. i no that you guys will proply think im stuped or whatever but i dont care i dont even care about life anymore...
just dont no anymore
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Try praying to God everyday about your problem, even if you don't feel anything or see anything changing. You said you have seen God change other lives, well they prayed alot and God didn't change their lives in one moment.
If you don't pray, then no matter how much God loves you, you're not letting Him help you.
If you don't pray, then no matter how much God loves you, you're not letting Him help you.
hey beautiful 
thankyou for sharing,
I just want you to know that your not alone, I became deeply into self harm after i was saved, infact most of the dark times i went through were after I had God in my life, and my theory on this is when you've got God in ur heart and ur trying to get closer to him thats when satan is going to attack us the most, thats when trails are going to come that we can only possibly get through with Gods help, and we're also going to get tested so we can become stronger in our faith.
Of course people will say to you that u need to just look at whats infront of u coz God's there and you need to just keep praying - all of this may be true but this is your journey and I think the way you're going to get through this is with help, surround urself with people who are going to keep lifting u up and encouraging u, even if theyre only the people on here do what you need to do to get through this, know that when your feeling very unsure about your faith that the people around u are going to hold the fort for u and keep praying for u!
and just remember this :
1 Peter 5:6-12 (New Living Translation)
6 So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. 7 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.
8 Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 9 Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters[a] all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are. 10 In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation. 11 All power to him forever! Amen.
I'll be praying for you, love ya girly x
thankyou for sharing,I just want you to know that your not alone, I became deeply into self harm after i was saved, infact most of the dark times i went through were after I had God in my life, and my theory on this is when you've got God in ur heart and ur trying to get closer to him thats when satan is going to attack us the most, thats when trails are going to come that we can only possibly get through with Gods help, and we're also going to get tested so we can become stronger in our faith.
Of course people will say to you that u need to just look at whats infront of u coz God's there and you need to just keep praying - all of this may be true but this is your journey and I think the way you're going to get through this is with help, surround urself with people who are going to keep lifting u up and encouraging u, even if theyre only the people on here
do what you need to do to get through this, know that when your feeling very unsure about your faith that the people around u are going to hold the fort for u and keep praying for u!and just remember this :
1 Peter 5:6-12 (New Living Translation)
6 So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. 7 Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you.
8 Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. 9 Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith. Remember that your Christian brothers and sisters[a] all over the world are going through the same kind of suffering you are. 10 In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation. 11 All power to him forever! Amen.
I'll be praying for you, love ya girly x
Firstly you do have a choice here. You can choose not to turn back to God. But I am speaking from experiance and what I have painfully learned. Because you became a Christian you will never have any peace in your life unless you are with God. I will not go into my life much here, but I left God after becoming a Christian. No matter what I had materially or family wise I was miserable, as you always will be if you do not return to God. Sorry to be blunt, but that is the truth
What you need to consider is why you feel you cannot be a Christian. I felt the same as a teenager. I learnt the answer has to be we are viewing Christianity wrongly. God loves you more than anyone ever could. He sent his son to die a painful death for you as much as anyone(believe it, it is the truth!) He so much wants you to be his child. Would he create a way that was for you impossible? No way!
I used to feel God changed others, but not me. I believed I could not be a Christian because I was too bad a person. This is rubbish. God does not call people according to their own personal goodness, believe it! And absolutely no-one deserves God's love, none of us. If you want to know what we are all basically like open your Bible and read Rom3:10-19 That's us! Now some may appear to be spiritual and Godly, but that is not their natural self, it is what God made them. Can he not change you also?
I went wrong by not trusting Jesus. I thought my Christianity hinged . on my perrsonal goodness, and on how well I could live according to what God desired. It sounds right, but it isn't
As long as you live there is only one thing that can give you a righteousness with God, trusting in his son who died for you. When you prayed to Jesus and felt nothing, that is not faith. It is really hard to push our feelings to one side and trust in Jesus, but it is the only way.
If I were burned alive for preaching the Gospel if I gave all I had to the poor, I would still only have one righteousness to enter Heaven. A belief that Jesus died for my sins, nothing else. It is your job to come to Jesus repent of your sin and ask him to change you. Then it is your job to trust him to do it. You may not see the evidence immediately. You may fel pretty low still, but if you persist in trusting Jesus he must change your life, otherwise the Bible is not a truthful book. It is not what you can do to be with God but what he can do through Jesus for you if you trust in His Son and let him. And you are not expected to immediately have faith that moves mountains, God will honour your desire and the faith you already have, and he will give you all you need to trust in His son if that is what you will determine to do
I cut myself in my youth, but it was not the answer. I know now that God loves me and I am secure with Him, because I know His son died for a rotten sinner like me. And because I know that and trust in Jesus death on the cross for me I know God has accepted me. And I can assure you he loves you too.
But we are required to learn the importance of faith. We only learn this when times are hard. We will not learn it if we go by feelings, or how dramatically our lives immediately change. You will get everything you desire from God if you trust in His son. That is the method God chose to save and keep you, if you do not follow that method you will get nowhere. I know he so longs for you to be with him now. No-one in this worlds will ever comfort you or love you as much as God does right now.
You are locked in really where God is concerned. You can run, you can hide, but Jesus will always be there yearning with his arms wide open for you to comne to him, and trust in him
I wasted thirty years of my life playing games with God please do not do the same, life is too short. You will find no happiness or peace in the world. You have known God, for you only misery awaits until the time uyou turn your life over to Christ. I know this is what happens. He doesn't expect you to make yourelf perfect, but simply requires you to trust him.
It says in the Bible our sins are forgiven by faith in Jesus, we receive the Holy Spirit by faith, and God gives us the power for miracles by faith. In each of these verses it says we do not receive these things by being 'good enough'. Do not put the cart before the horse.
I pray you will not live an unhappy life but turn to jesus and entrust yourself to him. I bet if you do he will be able to use you to a far greater extent than the people you see now who appear to have such victory and be so blessed by God. For you will be able to sympathise with those one day who are where you have been. Don't you thnik that maybe that would really please God?
What you need to consider is why you feel you cannot be a Christian. I felt the same as a teenager. I learnt the answer has to be we are viewing Christianity wrongly. God loves you more than anyone ever could. He sent his son to die a painful death for you as much as anyone(believe it, it is the truth!) He so much wants you to be his child. Would he create a way that was for you impossible? No way!
I used to feel God changed others, but not me. I believed I could not be a Christian because I was too bad a person. This is rubbish. God does not call people according to their own personal goodness, believe it! And absolutely no-one deserves God's love, none of us. If you want to know what we are all basically like open your Bible and read Rom3:10-19 That's us! Now some may appear to be spiritual and Godly, but that is not their natural self, it is what God made them. Can he not change you also?
I went wrong by not trusting Jesus. I thought my Christianity hinged . on my perrsonal goodness, and on how well I could live according to what God desired. It sounds right, but it isn't
As long as you live there is only one thing that can give you a righteousness with God, trusting in his son who died for you. When you prayed to Jesus and felt nothing, that is not faith. It is really hard to push our feelings to one side and trust in Jesus, but it is the only way.
If I were burned alive for preaching the Gospel if I gave all I had to the poor, I would still only have one righteousness to enter Heaven. A belief that Jesus died for my sins, nothing else. It is your job to come to Jesus repent of your sin and ask him to change you. Then it is your job to trust him to do it. You may not see the evidence immediately. You may fel pretty low still, but if you persist in trusting Jesus he must change your life, otherwise the Bible is not a truthful book. It is not what you can do to be with God but what he can do through Jesus for you if you trust in His Son and let him. And you are not expected to immediately have faith that moves mountains, God will honour your desire and the faith you already have, and he will give you all you need to trust in His son if that is what you will determine to do
I cut myself in my youth, but it was not the answer. I know now that God loves me and I am secure with Him, because I know His son died for a rotten sinner like me. And because I know that and trust in Jesus death on the cross for me I know God has accepted me. And I can assure you he loves you too.
But we are required to learn the importance of faith. We only learn this when times are hard. We will not learn it if we go by feelings, or how dramatically our lives immediately change. You will get everything you desire from God if you trust in His son. That is the method God chose to save and keep you, if you do not follow that method you will get nowhere. I know he so longs for you to be with him now. No-one in this worlds will ever comfort you or love you as much as God does right now.
You are locked in really where God is concerned. You can run, you can hide, but Jesus will always be there yearning with his arms wide open for you to comne to him, and trust in him
I wasted thirty years of my life playing games with God please do not do the same, life is too short. You will find no happiness or peace in the world. You have known God, for you only misery awaits until the time uyou turn your life over to Christ. I know this is what happens. He doesn't expect you to make yourelf perfect, but simply requires you to trust him.
It says in the Bible our sins are forgiven by faith in Jesus, we receive the Holy Spirit by faith, and God gives us the power for miracles by faith. In each of these verses it says we do not receive these things by being 'good enough'. Do not put the cart before the horse.
I pray you will not live an unhappy life but turn to jesus and entrust yourself to him. I bet if you do he will be able to use you to a far greater extent than the people you see now who appear to have such victory and be so blessed by God. For you will be able to sympathise with those one day who are where you have been. Don't you thnik that maybe that would really please God?