I had a bad relationship with my parents for the longest time. It got to the point where I just didn't want to exist any more. But then I started praying, and I knew that someone would always listen to me and love me and that was God. He got me out of that dark place, and since then my relationship with my mum has been better than ever and my life is a good one.
It it always seems darkest before the dawn, but I promise that this isn't permanent. Seek help with free online therapy, with hotlines, with friends and with God. Talking about how you feel is the first step in coming out of your slump. It may be hard to understand why God has planned this for you - I didn't understand why everything that happened to me happened at first - but with courage and faith you can get through it. I'm always here if you want to talk to someone who has had similar experiences X