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Hi everyone.
it's very long but I beg you to help me.
I'm writing here because I don't anywhere else to write. I'm 19 years old, God fearing and I live in france( my english is not really that good). So I have this guy in my class ,he's nice and very friendly to everyone. Truth to be told the guy is really handsome. But That's not what attracts me to him. I don't even know why I like him so much. i just like him and I keep day dreaming that one day I'll become his friend. Problem is It's hard for me to be cool around people I don't know, let alone try to be friends with them. I just arrived in france and i don't know many people. I only have one friend at my university but we're not in the same class. Sometimes I feel lonely in my classroom because most of the people know each other (they're nice but I don't have anything in particular that I can talk with them), when I'm sitting in group of people from my class, I feel like I'm not fitting in, either because they're talking about people I don't know or because I have no idea what they're talking about. So I just prefer sitting alone , that way I won't pretend to laugh at their stories. Most of my classmates find me shy ,and boring( i guess). Almost every night I pray to God that he'll give me a friend to sit with in my classroom, someone who will give the feeling that i'm not alone, who asks me how I am and worries about me. Either I skip class or not, nobody cares. I just pray God that I'll enter my class feeling that there's someone waiting for me in the class.
Back to the guy I spoke about in the first paragraph.Let's call him L. I'm not sure if I have feelings for L but one thing for sure I want him to notice me, talk to me and mostly become friends with him. I guess the fact that I'm a shy makes people not want to talk to me. L and I always end up being in the same place. Like in all the classes we have together, either I'd find myself sitting behind him or it would be the other way round, if it's not that then we found our self sitting face to face(like in computer rooms). One day I even went to the library with my friend and when I saw the spot where she wanted us to study it was a table in front of L(she didn't even know that guy). There just seem to be many coincidences for us. I ended up liking him. He's cool with everyone, and of course girls like him. That's why I think I have no chance to be with him. He keeps staring at me. Every time he looks at me ,I wonder what's going on in his head. He stares so much at me that makes me angry. I wonder why he don't gather the courage to stare at me and try to talk to me. Where ever I seat he'll glance in that direction. I wonder if it's me he's staring at or if it's just my Imagination. I pray God that L and I would become friends.
They say that God gives you what you need. So I ask myself this. What if L and I were never meant to be? Should I give up my feelings for him? Is God creating paths for me to approach him and I don't see them? If this guy has feelings for me shouldn't we together already? Should I wait for God to make friendship be born between us or should be the one to make the first step and God will support me? How can I know that he is the one God planned for me(that's my most important question)?
I'm someone who depends on God way too much, that's why I want to know how to deal with this.
Please help me.
it's very long but I beg you to help me.
I'm writing here because I don't anywhere else to write. I'm 19 years old, God fearing and I live in france( my english is not really that good). So I have this guy in my class ,he's nice and very friendly to everyone. Truth to be told the guy is really handsome. But That's not what attracts me to him. I don't even know why I like him so much. i just like him and I keep day dreaming that one day I'll become his friend. Problem is It's hard for me to be cool around people I don't know, let alone try to be friends with them. I just arrived in france and i don't know many people. I only have one friend at my university but we're not in the same class. Sometimes I feel lonely in my classroom because most of the people know each other (they're nice but I don't have anything in particular that I can talk with them), when I'm sitting in group of people from my class, I feel like I'm not fitting in, either because they're talking about people I don't know or because I have no idea what they're talking about. So I just prefer sitting alone , that way I won't pretend to laugh at their stories. Most of my classmates find me shy ,and boring( i guess). Almost every night I pray to God that he'll give me a friend to sit with in my classroom, someone who will give the feeling that i'm not alone, who asks me how I am and worries about me. Either I skip class or not, nobody cares. I just pray God that I'll enter my class feeling that there's someone waiting for me in the class.
Back to the guy I spoke about in the first paragraph.Let's call him L. I'm not sure if I have feelings for L but one thing for sure I want him to notice me, talk to me and mostly become friends with him. I guess the fact that I'm a shy makes people not want to talk to me. L and I always end up being in the same place. Like in all the classes we have together, either I'd find myself sitting behind him or it would be the other way round, if it's not that then we found our self sitting face to face(like in computer rooms). One day I even went to the library with my friend and when I saw the spot where she wanted us to study it was a table in front of L(she didn't even know that guy). There just seem to be many coincidences for us. I ended up liking him. He's cool with everyone, and of course girls like him. That's why I think I have no chance to be with him. He keeps staring at me. Every time he looks at me ,I wonder what's going on in his head. He stares so much at me that makes me angry. I wonder why he don't gather the courage to stare at me and try to talk to me. Where ever I seat he'll glance in that direction. I wonder if it's me he's staring at or if it's just my Imagination. I pray God that L and I would become friends.
They say that God gives you what you need. So I ask myself this. What if L and I were never meant to be? Should I give up my feelings for him? Is God creating paths for me to approach him and I don't see them? If this guy has feelings for me shouldn't we together already? Should I wait for God to make friendship be born between us or should be the one to make the first step and God will support me? How can I know that he is the one God planned for me(that's my most important question)?
I'm someone who depends on God way too much, that's why I want to know how to deal with this.
Please help me.
