Dear Fairy, I like the compassion I see in you. Don't be concerned about your dad smoking: don't let that come between you and him. Addictions are trouble, and it sais "Through much trouble we enter the kingdom of God." Be patient, that is much better than disappointed. Also persistent endurance asking God to embrace you and give you a friend like minded, He will. You have much more of Him than you realise, your in a good place and God is merciful and with us in trouble, your also stronger in Him than you realise. You have a teachable spirit and neither are your tears weakness, "Jesus wept." The Lord embrace you and comfort you and give you a friend likeminded.
Your brother Ray.