self injury

I've been struggling with it for 5 years... and stopping is a major struggle... and its getting to be where its so deep that i had to go to the hospital for stitches and even that hasnt stopped me i just dont know what to do

[candymyne]

I know that all to well... u need to surrender all ur rage and pain to God.

That's quite a shame. I wouldn't want you to end up dying from this, so I suggest you wear an elastic/rubber band around your wrist and whenever you feel like cutting yourself simply pull it back and let it strike your skin, creating a sting that satisfies your urge without causing any bleeding.
Keep me posted on how it works out for you okay?
Also there are plenty of young women like yourself dealing with this issue. smile_for_the_camra (Jocelyn) is one of these. You may like to talk to her about it.

ya... the rubber band thing doesnt work

[juliet84]

Originally Posted by thatonegermex

I've been struggling with it for 5 years... and stopping is a major struggle... and its getting to be where its so deep that i had to go to the hospital for stitches and even that hasnt stopped me i just dont know what to do

I didnt know its an addiction!!Ill be praying for you..I used to do the same, but not anymore because I know God wouldnt like that..

I was afraid it wouldn't work it seemed feasible but few people seem to give props.
That aside I'm tapped out really... just see if you can tackle the source of your sadness since that is probably what's making you cut yourself.

my dad wants me to see a therapist pero my step mom doesnt want to pay for it... or doesnt want my dad to pay for it cuz itll cut in to her shopping fund

Self mutilation is often used as a cry for attention. I'm not saying this to speak badly of you, so please don't take it the wrong way. I used to cut myself, and now I have an eating disorder I am working on. So I am in no position to judge.
I read what you just wrote about your parents, how your step mom doesn't want to pay for therapy because it will cut into her shopping fund. Maybe you feel like you're not getting the attention you deserve because of the step mom? Did you start hurting yourself around the same time she came into the picture?
Another reason people hurt themselves is for the control. Do you feel like there aren't many things in your life you are in control of?
I struggled with hurting myself for years, I might be able to help if you would like.

Originally Posted by Lilmissmaemae

Self mutilation is often used as a cry for attention. I'm not saying this to speak badly of you, so please don't take it the wrong way. I used to cut myself, and now I have an eating disorder I am working on. So I am in no position to judge.
I read what you just wrote about your parents, how your step mom doesn't want to pay for therapy because it will cut into her shopping fund. Maybe you feel like you're not getting the attention you deserve because of the step mom? Did you start hurting yourself around the same time she came into the picture?
Another reason people hurt themselves is for the control. Do you feel like there aren't many things in your life you are in control of?
I struggled with hurting myself for years, I might be able to help if you would like.

i just met my step mom this year
and i guess sometimes its control sometimes its payback to those who hurt me and those who ignore me and sometimes its punishment to myself for stupid stuff ive done...
and now i cant go a day with out doing in even at schooll....

[Therapon]

Originally Posted by thatonegermex

I've been struggling with it for 5 years... and stopping is a major struggle... and its getting to be where its so deep that i had to go to the hospital for stitches and even that hasnt stopped me i just dont know what to do

This book will explain why you are cutting: http://www.fishhouseministries.com/pdf/ShiningMan.pdf

Download it and read it. The author of that book has helped many with the same affliction and may be able to help you.

[Adrianv125]

hmmm it is true that problems in your life cause you grief, anger, depression, anxiety and many other negative feelings, but it is also true that a problem can't be solved by another problem. Hurting yourself physically will not change your emotional state, it will actually make it worse because every time you feel pressured or hurt or sad and such you will resort to hurting yourself as a way to deal with your problems, and this could result in your death. And as i said killing yourself would not be the solution. In my own experience there has been no better psychologist in my life than the word of God, and trust me i was crazy.

My computer wont allow me to download it... i wish i could..

I did it to punish the people around me, and I have my eating disorder to punish myself, so I completely understand those reasons.
Are you a Christian? I know that might seem like a dumb question considering the website, but a lot of people on here aren't.

No ma'am im not [=

Okay. Then I'll leave the "you're hurting Gods body" part out

Let me tell you why I stopped cutting myself...

I started cutting as a way to make my parents see they weren't treating me right. Eventually I started doing it just for myself, I didn't show anyone anymore and I didn't want to do it anymore but it was an addiction, I just couldn't stop. I had too many wounds on my arms and too many people were noticing, so I moved to my legs. I cut one of my main veins in my thigh on accident and it almost killed me. I was kept in the hospital for a long time, unable to cut myself. And like any other addiction I went through "withdrawals" I started biting my tongue or cheek to cause the pain that I needed. My psychiatrist didn't help at all (she kinda just pissed me off). I joined a group after I was released from the hospital, and talking to people who had the same problem I had really did help me. If you can find a group near you for self mutilaters I highly suggest it. I talked to people my own age and different ages who struggled with self mutilation and we became very close, becoming close to someone who has the same problem and working through it together is what made me stop...maybe you should try it.
I didn't mean for that to be so darn long, I'm a rambler! :-/

i babble too but i go off to different subjectts and stuff its lame....
and im on suicide watch right now and i told my hospital appointed therapist to F**k off and he told me to not talk to him again... so thats kinda not good.... but like i dont talk about my feelings at all.. ill tell you what happened but not how i feel

[smile_for_the_camra]

Yeah i used to cut myself to my mom made sure i had people around me all the time to make sure i didn't cut myself and i did use the rudder band thing to it helped a little but i mostly had to talk to God & ask for help and now I'm all good. (^_^)
I hope you get better i will Pray for you:]

im not gonna pray to a god who never was there for me..

I think what you are saying is the root of your problem. God was there you just didnt turn to Him. Try it go back and pray for Him to show you where He was when you were hurting.

ya and then ill just get let down and dissappointed again?