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My past issues with teenagers have been burned.. I can still see glimpses of what happened in the piles of ashes that remain.. My recent bitterness with teenagers has been burned.. I can still feel the flesh poking at me when ever I speak with a teenager; trying to show me the score board.. He failed. He fails even now as I'm confessing..
After what teenagers had done to me in the past, I had such a hatred toward them. The hate for them grew each and every time I met ANOTHER teenager just like the ones that beat me. It wasn't until this past month that I let the Lord our God burn the past, to burn the distasteful bitterness and hate. When I let God, and when I just let go. I, all of a sudden, had this love and this, passion to fight for them..teenagers. In all of my days, throughout my experiences, I would have NEVER thought that, that would be possible. That being the new love for them.. This peace that is now inside be, lingers night and day. I haven't been able to speak kindly and lovingly to a teenager since the month before they began to hurt me! That was YEARS ago.. If you only knew me, you'd be shocked too.. I mean, I despised them so much that my close guy friends of mine used to call me the next Hitler; that I'm going to end up starting another holocaust except for it'd be the end of all teenagers, not Jews. THAT is how bad, and THAT is how far I let the devil take me, and lead me.. Without concious though. I didn't do it out of, "I was born with this hate for you." I lived near them like, "You hurt me so bad I can still feel the pain deep down inside so I have no respect for you now.."
Oh, I'm telling you this because I hope to God, our Father in Heaven, that you aren't letting the devil decieve you. That you aren't letting your bitterness control what you feel, say, and do towards someone and/or something that hurt you badly before. It feels good, yes, I know. But.. It takes you down a road, I wish never happened.. But then again, it gave me that experience which enables me to speak to you now, with empathy. "My sheep know my voice, and I know them.." Jesus knows you, and you know Him. If you can hear him speaking, listen. Listen..
With absolute love,
Effie
P.S. What is your favorite color? Book? Movie? Band?
After what teenagers had done to me in the past, I had such a hatred toward them. The hate for them grew each and every time I met ANOTHER teenager just like the ones that beat me. It wasn't until this past month that I let the Lord our God burn the past, to burn the distasteful bitterness and hate. When I let God, and when I just let go. I, all of a sudden, had this love and this, passion to fight for them..teenagers. In all of my days, throughout my experiences, I would have NEVER thought that, that would be possible. That being the new love for them.. This peace that is now inside be, lingers night and day. I haven't been able to speak kindly and lovingly to a teenager since the month before they began to hurt me! That was YEARS ago.. If you only knew me, you'd be shocked too.. I mean, I despised them so much that my close guy friends of mine used to call me the next Hitler; that I'm going to end up starting another holocaust except for it'd be the end of all teenagers, not Jews. THAT is how bad, and THAT is how far I let the devil take me, and lead me.. Without concious though. I didn't do it out of, "I was born with this hate for you." I lived near them like, "You hurt me so bad I can still feel the pain deep down inside so I have no respect for you now.."
Oh, I'm telling you this because I hope to God, our Father in Heaven, that you aren't letting the devil decieve you. That you aren't letting your bitterness control what you feel, say, and do towards someone and/or something that hurt you badly before. It feels good, yes, I know. But.. It takes you down a road, I wish never happened.. But then again, it gave me that experience which enables me to speak to you now, with empathy. "My sheep know my voice, and I know them.." Jesus knows you, and you know Him. If you can hear him speaking, listen. Listen..
With absolute love,
Effie
P.S. What is your favorite color? Book? Movie? Band?