this is some posts that I have posted on some other threads in here. Instead of retyping it all I'm just gonna copy and paste it all for you, so sorry if some of it is out or order or what not. I hope there is something in there that helps you!
'm not really sure how long my depression lasted, and it still comes back every now and then, like recently it has. I think what helped me to get over it was that i went and worked at a Christian summer camp and just living there all summer surrounded by ppl who cared about me and loved God really helped! Also I started to think more positively. count your blessings and not your problems cuz life is too short. also i heard this quote "guilt can't change the past, worry can't cnage the future." also talking to ppl on here really helped! I also found these verses comforting
1 Corinthians 10:13 (New International Version)
13No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.
Psalm 147:3 (New International Version)
3 He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.
I dont really recall when i first hurt myself, it just kind of happned one night. If i have to guess I wuld say i have struggled with it for about a year and a half. I found that by writing down dates and keeping track of when i cut just made me want to cut more. cuz like id look at when i last cut and think 'wow! its been a week! i need to cut again!' so i stopped keeping track so i dont even know tha last time i cut. I want to say the last time I cut was Dec/Jan. but it doenst really matter.
yeah, when i went thru it i was pretty caught up in myself. but at the same time my friends were going thru things and i couldnt help them, and when i tried to they ignored me, so i hurt for them as well and i felt awful about myself cuz i couldnt help them out and i felt alone cuz they ignored me! so it is diff with everyone. but yes, it does get pretty selfish sometimes.
well what helped me stop cutting was realizing that it didnt do any good I mean i had problems so i hurt myself, and after i hurt myself they were still there. and i just felt even worse about myself and life. so it just hurt more than it helped. also i talked to my youth pastors wife and close friends about it. and sometimes when i wanted to cut I would draw a cross on my left wrist in ink to remind me that i dont need to cut cuz God is there to take care of me. [thats the reason behind my tattoo] he already shed his blood to save me so there is no need to shed my own trying yo save myself. also i realized suicide was very selfish. i mean you just take away a gift that God gave the world. by doing that you tell God that he didnt do a good job and that the world he made isnt good enough for you. and you dont know who you could have helped and shared God with.
so yeah... thats basically what i thought during my dark times... i hope it helps. oh! and a verse that helped me out a lot is 1 Corinthians 10:13.
also something that helped me when i wanted to cut was to draw a cross on my wrist. that was my preferred place to cut, and when i drew a cross there is would remind me that God is with me and He feels my pain and i dont need to cut.
since then i got a cross tattoo on my left wrist to give me a permanent reminder that God is always with me, even when i hate myself and feel alone.
I used to cut. It never got really bad but it really tore me up inside. I havent cut for a while now, but i still get the urges. I never got the courage to talk to me parents about it and idk if i ever will, so i applaud you sripps for talking to them about it! it was a really brave thing to do, cuz it is hard to admit when you hurt. when i cut it was a really dark time for me, i even saw a demon in my room, it was pretty darn scary!
I thank God for saving me and helping me to stop cutting, but like i said i sill get the urges.
once i found this song i would listen to it every night before i went to bed to help me remember that i didnt need to cut.
Artist:
Demon Hunter lyrics
Album:
Storm The Gates Of Hell
Bitter thoughts became your every waking breath
Save the nights your hollow dreams revealed the sweet release of death
In your thoughts you played a symphony of self
But your soul had bled a darker song of close to nothing left
Oh, The deliverance of blade and flame, your love
And greater is the blood
Chorus:
You’ll find it in the veil of night where solitude is born
In the emptiness of broken flesh, at the mercy of the thorns
You’ll find it in the veil of night where solitude is born
In the emptiness of broken flesh, at the mercy of the thorns
Every line a path into an empty heart
Where the words of now forgotten love fall silent in the dark
Oh, The deliverance of blade and flame, your love
And greater is the blood
(Chorus)
Sister, don’t you sleep through your own eulogy
Don’t sever what you are for what you couldn’t be
(Chorus)
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