Do I really beilive in a God ?

[Titania]

I live with my grandparents who are religious , but I don't know if I belive in a God anymore. I'm scared I'm going to hell because I don't 100% belive, but if you get scared of God doesn't that mean you believe in him right? But I pray and pray and nothing never gets better.

My Uncle, aunt, mom, and step-dad all do drugs. They've stolen money and my mom stolen thousands of dollars worht of stuff from my grandparents house even my wii and all the games. She's been married to my step-dad for 2 years who is an old boyfriend of hers from her teen years has a history of drugs since he was like 12. My other Uncle even hung himeself partly because of them, but yeah he had other priblems of his own.

But after that they promised to God to stop. As far as I know my uncle and aunt slipped once who some pot, but they buy a 6 pack of beer every night.

My mom is pregent. I don't beilive she can stay clean for ine months. Yesterday night she and my step-father who is also a big drinker sneaked out they're still night back and it's already afternoon of the next day. Is't drinking and drugs bad for a 6 week-old fetus? If it's born with crack in its system won't child services take it away? I don't know what it is yet, but I still love it. Is that strange? I read a lot and I've gone through childhood depression and I think a lot and fight about God and death and life stuff like that in my head with myself. Is that weird too?

Just why if there is a God isn't he listening? Something very bad happened to me when my mom and real dad were still married so I didn't have a very happy life until my parents divorced when I 3. But why won't he make things better? It's been like this for years even before I was born! Just if there is a God where is he? And do I beilive in a God if I'm scared of going to hell?

[JJAC]

there will be struggle in life no matter what
you do believe in God
but you must pray for your family that they may turn from sin
pray to God and know that he is always with you
If you need to talk you can pm me if you would like
I'll be praying for you.

[PopClick]

Hi Titania

I did notice two things about your post that might help. It seems like there isn't a whole lot of peace in your life (I'm not saying it's your fault, just observing) and also, you mentioned God a lot... but not Jesus.

If you haven't already, I would suggest asking Jesus to come into your heart and be your Savior.

Talk to Him like He's your best friend, tell Him everything. Ask Him to take your troubles and cares, and to help you forgive anybody that you need to forgive.

1st Peter 5:6 and 7: "Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you."

And definitely feel free to message me if you would like to talk about anything else. ~ PopClick

[Brandon777]

No one can tell you if you believe in someone. You either own it or not. Otherwise you'll just be confused. That sounds like a bad situation, but I don't sense any resentment, bitterness or anger about your situation. I think you can easily turn your attitude to thankfulness to God if you give Him the credit for giving you the things you DO have. Since your only 15 I'd say you'll do yourself a favor by paying as little attention to the bad things in life as possible. You very likely still have a long life in front of you, so live it for God and don't waste your time. I'm sorry to say drinking and drugs is definately bad for someone in the womb, but I think you already know that. It hurts, but the best thing you can do is to not worry about that and talk to God whenever you get sad or angry about that. It's perfectly good and normal to care for someone who is still fragile in the womb. You say, "I read a lot and I've gone through childhood depression and I think a lot and fight about God and death and life stuff like that in my head with myself. Is that weird too?"
No, that's definately not wierd. More people in this world should be conserned about deeper issues like you are. You say, "Just why if there is a God isn't he listening?" God has His own reasons for doing or not doing things. It's best to be glad for the few good things that DO come our way, that way we're happy even while bad things happen all around us. I tend to think the Bible is right when it says everything will be made right on Judgement Day, when good people are rewarded for being good and the cruel and immoral people are punished for what they did. That's a hope of mine. I hope you can have happiness from that hope like me it brings me great comfort believing that.
You say where is God? I know reasons for myself from experience, but I can't show you. I think you'd have to experience Him for yourself. All I can say is that all the good stuff and bad stuff came from somewhere, and I hope it'll all turn out fair in the end.

[Ugly]

God isn't a genie where we just tell Him what we want and He does it. Also, God is a big fan of free will. Your family has the choice to live how they are living. God will not force them to change against their will no matter how much you pray. God will try to bring these people to Him, so that they will desire to follow Him and live right. If you're basing your faith on whether or not God magically makes people act how you want them to then your faith will never be strong.
Also, i saw this on a church sign today, it seems fitting to your situation as well. ''Faith makes impossible things possible, not easy''.

[Toriberry]

Like Brandon777 already said, only you can answer whether or not you believe in God. It is something between you and Him. You must figure out and decide for yourself.
Sometimes bad things happen in our lives. Imagine what it would be like to only eat chocolate cake for the rest of your life. You would get tired of eating the same thing over and over again even if it was something you really liked. I believe that we have the bad times to remind us of how precious the good times are.
Also, the Lord uses these hard times in our life to have his name glorified: "As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. His disciples asked him, 'Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?' 'Neither this man nor his parents sinned,' said Jesus, 'but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. While I am in the world, I am the light of the world.'” - John 9: 1-4.
I know it is hard to go through these times in your life, but that is when we lean on God the most.
The Lord doesn't promise to make our lives easy when we except Him in our life (in fact, being a Christian today is harder than ever), but he does promise that He will be there with you throughout life's challenges. "The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." - Deuteronomy 31:8.
Being a believer is a two-way relationship. God desires to have a relationship with His children. We do this by praying, reading the Bible, and doing the things that bring you closer to God. Please don't think that I am saying you currently do not have a relationship with the Lord (again, that is between you and Him). I only say this as a remind to every Christian (myself very much included). I struggle with keeping the relationship part every day and I must remind myself often.
As to your part about praying and praying with nothing happening: God answers our prays, but not always in the way we think. Sometimes we cannot see our prays working right away but that does not mean that God doesn't hear you. "Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18.
Always remember that God loves you more than our brains can fathom.

[jesusnme]

my life someimes feels like this....i figure my life is the way it is because of what i consider bad choices on some peoples behalf...i believe in God and continue to pray.

Do you really believe in God. I think so, as you seem to believe in hell. i cant answer all ur questions about God - this is for you to decide. read the bible and pray for him to bring you to know him. this is what i do

[shemaiah]

As already said, your parents have been given a free will. There are many questions that we can ask as to why things happen, but either way, in the end Christ wins, in the end He still loves you and in the end He can make your life beautiful. God bless