I got tired

[fightingforthelight]

I got tired. I don't know what to do. Everybody hates me. Almost everybody. I have get no one to talk with. When I find someone who feels the same. Then he (or she) is getting angry on me. Ofcourse, I have got peoples who understand me, here in CC. But right now, I have got one, but we can never meet because of times difference.
The world is stupid. My life is hard. It sucks. All christians are strange. I'm one of them. Thought I'm different. I'm hated for my sin. All christians hates me. God is angry on me. I can't see the light. I ask Him to help. He don't want to listen. He want's me to leave my sin. But I can't. He doesn't give help.
What is the meaning of the life? Why God doesn't listen?

I'm stupid. My thread is stupid. Everybody will think that I'm just talking without any meaning. Yes. It's all I have.

 

[Crimeny]

dont blame God, sometimes in life we gotta go through trials and through hardships, recall James as he spoke about blessed are those who are persecuted, because if they prevail God will give them a crown of life, same with you and me sista. And hey, listen, the world may hate you as it hated Jesus but God and Jesus love and care for you, even if it looks like you are not loved or cared for or if they do not answer your prayers. Sometimes, God likes it when we are broken and downtrodden because he can reveal his glory and power and help mend us to be better creatures than we were before. It sounds ridiculous but its true, a process of refining and removing all bad things and growing in spirit. Also its okay to rant but I would like to present you with the following: feelings are a double-edged sword i can tell you that, sometimes I get down on my knees and cry cause I either did something wrong or something and the first couple of times i broke down all i could do was sit in my self-pity and contemplate suicide and that this is sucky and go back to sinning essentially and escape from the pain. Eventually I came to realize that these feelings were being stirred up by the hate and fear inside me and by satan of course to make me feel worthless and that they really did not profit me at all. Along with that, I also figured out a gift God gave me to begin with; my brain. Sometimes if we just sit down and think over what we are thinking and our relationship with Jesus, we sort of figure out where we are and what we need. Sometimes we also figure out whats wrong with ourselves and when this happens we just pray to Jesus for help, cleansing and to come out stronger. That doesn't make me or anyone else perfect but it helps you to sort of find your feet and start working at life.

Also sorry because I just realized how i strayed off topic but the main point is don't fill yourself up with hate and anger cause it breeds and ferments into sin and evil, trust me it leads to a dark abyss. Just take the time to stop and consider love and Gods love for you, and ask Jesus to bring that love into your life because you feel whatever (angry, confused, depressed or generally upset) and you wanna find God and his love.

 

[Kyouken]

Ruta, I'd like to tell you that God is up there, He's not angry at you, and He loves you more than you know. While all of that is true, I've got a hunch it may not be what you need to hear right now.

I know I've told you that it's sort of easy for me, but it isn't always. I was being self centered, and I was wrong. It wasn't a lie, but I said that because things were going smoothly at that time, and things had been steady for a while.

These past couple of days I've been having a lot of thoughts of hatred towards other people and myself. It sickened me, and still does. But it was Jesus who rescued me from those thoughts. I didn't win every battle, but the only victories I have had were because of Jesus.

Please, don't call yourself stupid. You're not. We all go through trials and have pain. But victory isn't as far off as it seems. It's right there, within you. It's Jesus Christ, the Son of God.

 

[NazariteVow]

@fightingforthelight why do you think people hate you?

 

[Johnxxxx]

here's what I read "whiine whiine waaa waaa waa whiine my life i tough boo :c" YOUR LIFE ISN'T TOUGH, YOU OWN A COMPUTER, YOU HAVE FRIENDS, GET OVER YOURSELF.

 

[Ugly]

here's what I read "whiine whiine waaa waaa waa whiine my life i tough boo :c" YOUR LIFE ISN'T TOUGH, YOU OWN A COMPUTER, YOU HAVE FRIENDS, GET OVER YOURSELF.

I may get in trouble for this, and normally i'm against people saying things like this in the forums, but i'm going to make an exception just for you, John.... you are an insensitive jerk. Between this ignorant comment and your failed attempt to justify having pre-marital sex you have lost hope of ever having any credibility to me. I will be sure to avoid all future posts by you.

 

[jimmydiggs]

here's what I read "whiine whiine waaa waaa waa whiine my life i tough boo :c" YOUR LIFE ISN'T TOUGH, YOU OWN A COMPUTER, YOU HAVE FRIENDS, GET OVER YOURSELF.

As much as I am typically a boot-strap kind of guy, I think you should read Ephesian s 4:29 and consider what it says.


Ephesians 4:29
29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

Pouring salt in wounds typically is not very helpful.

I'm not attackin' ya bro', just sayin': Hey, you might want to reconsider what you've said.

EDIT: I am prone to saying things that ought not to be said as well.

Psalm 141:3
Set a guard over my mouth, O LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips.

 

[AnandaHya]

I got tired. I don't know what to do. Everybody hates me. Almost everybody. I have get no one to talk with. When I find someone who feels the same. Then he (or she) is getting angry on me. Ofcourse, I have got peoples who understand me, here in CC. But right now, I have got one, but we can never meet because of times difference.
The world is stupid. My life is hard. It sucks. All christians are strange. I'm one of them. Thought I'm different. I'm hated for my sin. All christians hates me. God is angry on me. I can't see the light. I ask Him to help. He don't want to listen. He want's me to leave my sin. But I can't. He doesn't give help.
What is the meaning of the life? Why God doesn't listen?

I'm stupid. My thread is stupid. Everybody will think that I'm just talking without any meaning. Yes. It's all I have.

wow that is a lot.

well since your post is a rant, I think I'll rant too, maybe you won't feel so alone.

lol I won't even edit this and you cna see how littel sense I truly make if I allowed myself just to ramble. ok I have to go back and fix my typing errors or it would make no sense at all but . yeah christians are strange.
I always thought I was different and not in a good way you know? when I was your age all I wanted to do was fit in but to do that some people wanted me to do things that in my heart I knew were wrong and sometimes I would give in to the peer pressure and feel so stupid.

it wasn't fun and I would have nightmares afterwards and feel so guilty until I just cried out and ask God to help. sometimes I didn't feel like anyone was listening at all. I would grow impatient and mad and angry. and ask question like you did your post and ask God if He really cared why didn't He HELP ME!

I felt lost and abandoned and self righteous and mad because I felt like I DESERVED to be helped and that God needed to prove to me that he Really Loved me.

But eventually I would run out of steam, out of anger, out of energy, out of hope, out of pride and just pray and say "God I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done it, will you forgive me?"

then I would wait.

Did I hear a voice? se lightning flash, watch angels ride down in thunderstorm clouds?

no not normally. I would feel a sense of peace and promoting to read my Bible. In its pages I would find answers to my problems and messages of reassurance that I'm not alone. others went through the same thing. were rejected and abused for their faith and stood strong against the pressure.

then I would say to myself. I wasn't strong, i'm not really all that special, the Bible can't be talking about me.

But you know what? It took me a very long time to believe it but God tells us that we are special and that He saved and made us for good works and for His glory. That we are one of a kind and and that we ARE Special and beloved of Him. He says not to listen to the lies but to His truth and that He loves us.

anyway here are a few of my favorite songs and scriptures. People will not always be there for you not because they don't care or love you but because that is the way of the world. you have to place your trust in God who is always there and depend on His Holy Spirit who can help and guide you.

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-bTho69TZI[/video]

Ephesians 2:10
For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.

have a blessed night

 

[Johnxxxx]

I may get in trouble for this, and normally i'm against people saying things like this in the forums, but i'm going to make an exception just for you, John.... you are an insensitive jerk. Between this ignorant comment and your failed attempt to justify having pre-marital sex you have lost hope of ever having any credibility to me. I will be sure to avoid all future posts by you.

you want some cheese with that whine?

 

[Johnxxxx]

As much as I am typically a boot-strap kind of guy, I think you should read Ephesian s 4:29 and consider what it says.


Ephesians 4:29
29 Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

Pouring salt in wounds typically is not very helpful.

I'm not attackin' ya bro', just sayin': Hey, you might want to reconsider what you've said.

EDIT: I am prone to saying things that ought not to be said as well.

Psalm 141:3
Set a guard over my mouth, O LORD; keep watch over the door of my lips.

I understand what I said wasn't exactly savory, or nice. I'm just absolutely sick of people with no real problems soliciting attention from the internet. I guess personally for me, every time I start to complain I remind myself "Oh wait, people are dying right now. And I'm sitting here on a computer, in a house", and I think other people should do the same.

 

[fightingforthelight]

I understand what I said wasn't exactly savory, or nice. I'm just absolutely sick of people with no real problems soliciting attention from the internet. I guess personally for me, every time I start to complain I remind myself "Oh wait, people are dying right now. And I'm sitting here on a computer, in a house", and I think other people should do the same.

Excuse me, but if you are so sick, then why you have to write something here? You can just leave this thread and just keep ignoring me and everybody who feels the way I do. Because of these people, like you, someone can make a decision to stop living. I'm not so stupid as you think. I don't want any attention.

 

[fightingforthelight]

wow that is a lot.

well since your post is a rant, I think I'll rant too, maybe you won't feel so alone.

lol I won't even edit this and you cna see how littel sense I truly make if I allowed myself just to ramble. ok I have to go back and fix my typing errors or it would make no sense at all but . yeah christians are strange.
I always thought I was different and not in a good way you know? when I was your age all I wanted to do was fit in but to do that some people wanted me to do things that in my heart I knew were wrong and sometimes I would give in to the peer pressure and feel so stupid.

it wasn't fun and I would have nightmares afterwards and feel so guilty until I just cried out and ask God to help. sometimes I didn't feel like anyone was listening at all. I would grow impatient and mad and angry. and ask question like you did your post and ask God if He really cared why didn't He HELP ME!

I felt lost and abandoned and self righteous and mad because I felt like I DESERVED to be helped and that God needed to prove to me that he Really Loved me.

But eventually I would run out of steam, out of anger, out of energy, out of hope, out of pride and just pray and say "God I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done it, will you forgive me?"

then I would wait.

Did I hear a voice? se lightning flash, watch angels ride down in thunderstorm clouds?

no not normally. I would feel a sense of peace and promoting to read my Bible. In its pages I would find answers to my problems and messages of reassurance that I'm not alone. others went through the same thing. were rejected and abused for their faith and stood strong against the pressure.

then I would say to myself. I wasn't strong, i'm not really all that special, the Bible can't be talking about me.

But you know what? It took me a very long time to believe it but God tells us that we are special and that He saved and made us for good works and for His glory. That we are one of a kind and and that we ARE Special and beloved of Him. He says not to listen to the lies but to His truth and that He loves us.

anyway here are a few of my favorite songs and scriptures. People will not always be there for you not because they don't care or love you but because that is the way of the world. you have to place your trust in God who is always there and depend on His Holy Spirit who can help and guide you.

[video]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0-bTho69TZI[/video]

Ephesians 2:10
For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them.

have a blessed night

Thats cool to know that someone understand me. Thank you for your post Thank you so much
God bless you...

Ruta

 

[fightingforthelight]

@fightingforthelight why do you think people hate you?

because everywhere where I go, people hates me. No one want to be with me. Even here, in CC there are people that hates me for any reason. It's how I'm feeling...

 

[fightingforthelight]

Ruta, I'd like to tell you that God is up there, He's not angry at you, and He loves you more than you know. While all of that is true, I've got a hunch it may not be what you need to hear right now.

I know I've told you that it's sort of easy for me, but it isn't always. I was being self centered, and I was wrong. It wasn't a lie, but I said that because things were going smoothly at that time, and things had been steady for a while.

These past couple of days I've been having a lot of thoughts of hatred towards other people and myself. It sickened me, and still does. But it was Jesus who rescued me from those thoughts. I didn't win every battle, but the only victories I have had were because of Jesus.

Please, don't call yourself stupid. You're not. We all go through trials and have pain. But victory isn't as far off as it seems. It's right there, within you. It's Jesus Christ, the Son of God.

Thank you, brother... You always help me...

God bless you

 

[fightingforthelight]

dont blame God, sometimes in life we gotta go through trials and through hardships, recall James as he spoke about blessed are those who are persecuted, because if they prevail God will give them a crown of life, same with you and me sista. And hey, listen, the world may hate you as it hated Jesus but God and Jesus love and care for you, even if it looks like you are not loved or cared for or if they do not answer your prayers. Sometimes, God likes it when we are broken and downtrodden because he can reveal his glory and power and help mend us to be better creatures than we were before. It sounds ridiculous but its true, a process of refining and removing all bad things and growing in spirit. Also its okay to rant but I would like to present you with the following: feelings are a double-edged sword i can tell you that, sometimes I get down on my knees and cry cause I either did something wrong or something and the first couple of times i broke down all i could do was sit in my self-pity and contemplate suicide and that this is sucky and go back to sinning essentially and escape from the pain. Eventually I came to realize that these feelings were being stirred up by the hate and fear inside me and by satan of course to make me feel worthless and that they really did not profit me at all. Along with that, I also figured out a gift God gave me to begin with; my brain. Sometimes if we just sit down and think over what we are thinking and our relationship with Jesus, we sort of figure out where we are and what we need. Sometimes we also figure out whats wrong with ourselves and when this happens we just pray to Jesus for help, cleansing and to come out stronger. That doesn't make me or anyone else perfect but it helps you to sort of find your feet and start working at life.

Also sorry because I just realized how i strayed off topic but the main point is don't fill yourself up with hate and anger cause it breeds and ferments into sin and evil, trust me it leads to a dark abyss. Just take the time to stop and consider love and Gods love for you, and ask Jesus to bring that love into your life because you feel whatever (angry, confused, depressed or generally upset) and you wanna find God and his love.

okay, brother... Thx for your post God bless you

Ruta

 

[NazariteVow]

I don't know what you're struggling with but God can take it away and give you rest. All you have to do is only believe in Him. I also think that God is answering you just don't like the answer. Stop self pitying yourself, I don't mean this to sound harsh but I have self pitied myself in the past and it gets you........................nowhere. So stop. Pray earnestly and believe in God, how he works is by your faith, if you don't have any faith in Him and you don't believe that He is going to do what you ask Hm to do for you then what's the sense in praying? God works in us and through us by our faith. So just have some.

 

[Kyouken]

Thank you, brother... You always help me...

God bless you

I may have screwed up in the past, but if your well being is good, then things are good.

I pray you receive the best

 

[fightingforthelight]

I don't know what you're struggling with but God can take it away and give you rest. All you have to do is only believe in Him. I also think that God is answering you just don't like the answer. Stop self pitying yourself, I don't mean this to sound harsh but I have self pitied myself in the past and it gets you........................nowhere. So stop. Pray earnestly and believe in God, how he works is by your faith, if you don't have any faith in Him and you don't believe that He is going to do what you ask Hm to do for you then what's the sense in praying? God works in us and through us by our faith. So just have some.

Okay, sister Thank you very much...
God bless!

 

[Johnxxxx]

Excuse me, but if you are so sick, then why you have to write something here? You can just leave this thread and just keep ignoring me and everybody who feels the way I do. Because of these people, like you, someone can make a decision to stop living. I'm not so stupid as you think. I don't want any attention.

So let me get this straight, you want people to have a discussion but only if the viewpoints make you feel good?
And you think that anyone who opposes your view point should just not talk to you at all? And you think that a comment like mine would drive someone to suicide? And you're making a thread on a public site, and you expect me to believe you're not seeking attention? (I hope you read each question with increasing intensity)

Okay, first off, I sincerely hope you don't kill yourself over my comment. I highly doubt my sardonic commentary is going to push anyone over the edge any time soon though.

Secondly, I just can't let you go on the way you're going on. Not in all good consciousness, I'm telling you as a friend that to constantly complain about life, to be so very pessimistic, isn't healthy. Look I'm naturally the same way you are, I'm cynical, I'm clinically depressed, and I have a slew of other issues. But I know how good my life is compared to a lot of people, and so I'm thankful for it.

I don't think you're stupid, I think you're whiny. There's a huge difference.

 

[zeroturbulence]

here's what I read "whiine whiine waaa waaa waa whiine my life i tough boo :c" YOUR LIFE ISN'T TOUGH, YOU OWN A COMPUTER, YOU HAVE FRIENDS, GET OVER YOURSELF.

If you don't have anything productive to add to the conversation, then please do everyone a favor and keep silent. The lack of decorum you just displayed does not belong in this forum and especially not in a thread where someone is seeking help. Just because someone's problem seems ridiculous to you doesn't mean it is ridiculous to others.

I know you are probably going to mock me for addressing you in this way because that is usually what someone who posts blatant insensitive comments like that would do. Just know that if you keep it up you will not last long on this site.

God bless.

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2. No conduct that is offensive or counterproductive to fellowship.