My name is Matthew. Recently i was on youtube just looking up random videos when I came accross a video that scared me to death. Its not important what the video was but that video caused me to pray for the first time in almost a year. But I feel so distant from god and I don't know where to go from hear. During the past year I have been the total opposite of what a christain is supposed to be. I feel that I am selfish, fake, and weak. I feel that I have gone too far down the wrong path to turn back. I just prayed again five minutes before writting this and what was on my mind was repenting. But I see to go through this cycle of leaving and returning to god. I feel ashamed and sacred.
Can anybody relate? I just don't know what to do now. My life for the past year has been centered around sinful behaviour and now I just feel like I am repeating the cycle all over again.
Please pray for me.
Peace and Blessings.
Repent and accept Salvation.
At this time you must seek Yahvah God in the name of Yahshua the Messiah.
Do not become the judge of yourself "gone too far down the wrong path" ... We all have been on the wrong path, just being on the path is wrong, do not consider you are any further than another down the path..
One sin = death... and one way to be reconciled and forgiven and cleansed, that is through Yahshua the Messiah, it is the blood of the Lamb that can redeem you in the eyes of Yahvah God.
Sin is a trespass of the 10 Commandments of Yahvah God.
20 And God spake all these words, saying,
2 I am the Lord thy God, which have brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.
3 Thou shalt have no other gods before me.
4 Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth.
5 Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the Lord thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me;
6 And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments.
7 Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain; for the Lord will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain.
8 Remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy.
9 Six days shalt thou labour, and do all thy work:
10 But the seventh day is the sabbath of the Lord thy God: in it thou shalt not do any work, thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, nor thy maidservant, nor thy cattle, nor thy stranger that is within thy gates:
11 For in six days the Lord made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and rested the seventh day: wherefore the Lord blessed the sabbath day, and hallowed it.
12 Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the Lord thy God giveth thee.
13 Thou shalt not kill.
14 Thou shalt not commit adultery.
15 Thou shalt not steal.
16 Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour.
17 Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbour's.
Call out in the name of Yahshua the Messiah son of Yahvah God to save you from your sins.
Die to the self and become free from your death sentence.
Grace is poured out for those that love and obey and a thirsty for righteousness.
Repent and accept Salvation.
Psalm 23
23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
Friend, we have all been in your state, stop trying by your own efforts and let the Holy spirit come upon you to be your guide and comfort.
May your heart be open to receive the truth, and your eyes see and your ears hear.
