If you feel that you need to cut yourself, then remember that Jesus was cut for you.
If you feel that you need to bruise yourself, remember Jesus bruises for you.
If you feel that you have pain you cannot control, remember Jesus feels that pain with you.
I have been in your shoes, now take a walk in mine:
I came to realise that nomatter what things I feel, that bring me down, that hurt me, that make me feel alone, that they are not what defines me.
What other people may do to hurt you, is in their minds. It is their words, or their attitude, their spite, their anger. Your mind does not need to have any part of theirs. You cut yourself when you could cut someone else. That says a lot about you. You will blame yourself and hurt yourself and feel pain for yourself instead of inflicting it on others. You have a good heart.
Take this piece of advice:
If someone hits you, because of what they think of you, then do they not only hit what they think of you? If they have the mindset to hit you, then surely you would not allow them to know you fully. SO they only hit an idea of you. So really when they hit you, they cannot touch you! They hit their own mind!
Do not ;et what other people do have effect like this on you. You are one of God's children just like they are. And they will learn the lessons that they need to learn, as will you. So please, throw your pain at God for He is willing ot bear it.
Your reaction is all that you have control over. Your own attitude, and your own mind. Make that mind one of peace. Even in the face of adversity.
You are worth Jesus death all on your own, for if there was nobody else on Earth, Jesus is unchanging. He still would have died for you.
Remember that He is forgiving, and loving. And that you have all the power to be whatever you need be. Nobody has the power to hurt you unless you allow it. Be loving and kind. Never lose that ounce of yourself that gives and enjoys giving. You have a lot to give the world.
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