God loves you more than you can possibly imagine. He forgives and understands that we're not perfect. As long as you're trying He can see that your faith is strong. Let Him into how you feel, tell Him while you're praying. It helps to say it out loud to God. He knows how you feel anyway, He can read every thought in your head, so let Him know that you are thinking about it and working to become more like Christ. If it is part of His amazing plan, the prayer will be answered and sometimes things just aren't meant to be and God let's nature take it's course as He has something even better for us and that's okay. What's important is that you're trusting in him to guide and lead you to the next chapter and throughout your life. If its meant to be it'll happen. God bless you