Maybe this question seems stupid . Because my mom is Christian and takes me to church always, I haven't been baptised and recently I haven't had a very good relationship with God, so how can I confess all of my sins and allow him to save me? And also to finally accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior? Should I just start praying for forgiveness and wait until I feel something? Should I delete all my secular music and dress a certain way? And just begin to preach to people? I don't want to ask my mom because im not yet comfortable , and I know shed think something else is going on since I haven't been interested until now, I've always believed there was a God and now I'm positive that he has raised Jesus from the dead and that Jesus died for our sins. How can I express that? My mom is the only truly religious person in out family and I don't currently live with her , I live in a household full of rage , anger and vulgarity. And sometimes I curse , I use the Lords name in vein , but I don't steal and I barely lie and whenever I do i feel extreme guilt weeks after. I try my best tp have a relationship with God but I'm so confused, I once heard in church that Satan can deceive you and pretend to be the Lord answering your prayers, I often hear different opinions perhaps in my head about certain situation, and I honestly don't know if its God speaking to me , Satan, or just me telling myself what I'd like to hear. How can i know God , and truly accept him? What should it feel like? How will i guarentee ive done it right? Help!
I think your okay. I'll show you... read the verse below
Proverbs 24:16
For a righteous man falls seven times, and rises again, But the wicked stumble in time of calamity.
^^^ Notice how in this verse that the just man falls? The righteous man isn't perfect. The righteous man messes up and sins. BUT, the righteous man rises up again. The righteous man doesn't give up.
So, I think your okay because your going towards God.
Remember this isn't about you being perfect ok? This is about you moving forward to Jesus ok? No Christian is perfect.
I also think its worth showing you the thief on the cross with Jesus... Please read the verse below... it'll help you a lot, trust me.
Luke 23:32-43
[SUP]32 [/SUP]Two other men, both criminals, were also led out with him to be executed. [SUP]33 [/SUP]When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him there, along with the criminals—one on his right, the other on his left. [SUP]34 [/SUP]Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”[SUP][
a][/SUP] And they divided up his clothes by casting lots.
[SUP]35 [/SUP]The people stood watching, and the rulers even sneered at him. They said, “He saved others; let him save himself if he is God’s Messiah, the Chosen One.”
[SUP]36 [/SUP]The soldiers also came up and mocked him. They offered him wine vinegar [SUP]37 [/SUP]and said, “If you are the king of the Jews, save yourself.”
[SUP]38 [/SUP]There was a written notice above him, which read: this is the king of the jews.
[SUP]39 [/SUP]One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at him: “Aren’t you the Messiah? Save yourself and us!”
[SUP]40 [/SUP]But the other criminal rebuked him. “Don’t you fear God,” he said, “since you are under the same sentence? [SUP]41 [/SUP]We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve. But this man has done nothing wrong.”
[SUP]42 [/SUP]Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.[SUP][
b][/SUP]”
[SUP]43 [/SUP]Jesus answered him, “Truly I tell you, today you will be with me in paradise.”
^^^ Notice the difference between these two criminals? One criminal a jerk and wasn't humble. The other criminal was humble and knew he was wrong for being a criminal. Jesus accepted the criminal that was humble.
You see, you don't have to be perfect. You have to be humble and keep moving forward. Do the best you can to follow Jesus, BUT you don't have to be perfect. Like the just man
There's more I wish I could explain. I wish I could break it down for you so you can understand very easily. If you get back, I'll do my best explain more. Let me know what you think?