Hey I struggled with this when I was younger and it is possible to beat anger, it requires you to step back and walk the steps to calm yourself down because it is really a matter of achieving self-control. I just read from your words you do not want to deal with it, and I cannot stress that we are only going to hurt ourselves if we continue to deny the facts that we have some sin and that it is causing us to stumble. I know you do not like to be angry, but you must acknowledge your anger and what is causing it and also that you are not doing anything about that. God will help you, but also make the steps to let him help you, give him something to work with you know? Cooperating with the Spirit and his word will enable you to achieve the wisdom and growth in whatever you are lacking. So just work with the spirit on growing and have a good time.
What I used to do was that sometimes my mom would make me angry because I was hostile and resentful towards her admonitions and advice, so in the parking lot at the farmers market, I remember getting out of the car and then taking deep breaths before walking into the farmers market. You know all those suggestions like take deep breaths and count to 10 and what not? They are really good ways of starting the self control battle, I struggled with that but if you sincerely deny yourself and ventilate in a healthy form without expressing anger, you begin to win the fight.
I learned also do not express your anger, never to express your anger, I shouldn't do that at all because what happens is that if you manifest it, you are letting it out, you must pacify your anger like it says in the proverbs, that a wise man or a man of understanding pacifies their anger (Proverbs 29:11). Enduring the stimulus helps a lot, because when you endure the stimulus you get a handle over it.
I also want to keep exhorting and encouraging you to fight the sin with diligence and skill, waging the war skillfully in the path to mastery and Christ-likeness. Don't feel down or depressed for the losses and mistakes, there is a chance for redemption, that the Lord will redeem you and restore and replenish you. You are working on the battle, and God believes in your success and so do I. I hope you are blessed.
