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For past year or two i have been struggling on and off with feeling "out of it" or unconnected in church, and just feel out of place and ultimately lonely... I have people I enjoy their company and they mine, however do to lifestyles and careers its not always possible to spend time with them and speak...
I often feel like because I am an introverted person and prefer deep and meaningful conversations rather than large groups with fleeting regularly changing topics, that I feel this way and I dunno how to remedy this...simply I could just have more deep and meanigful conversations but how when people have lives outwith our friendships (that is not a blind statement, but a fact of life that their lives do not revolve around me and they shouldn't) and i have tried just enjoying group conversations and it doesn't work, I just find myself reserving and holding my input back...
My other option is to just enjoy being lonely...but how do I enjoy something that makes me feel miserable, to a point of depression and almost to the point of feeling like my home, my bedroom, my private places are like solitary confinement, a prison cell and I feel like another day alone and I might just snap and go insane...thats how I feel almost, like I am ready for a meltdown...
Please any advice is appreciated! I ain't wanting pity, I want answers..
I often feel like because I am an introverted person and prefer deep and meaningful conversations rather than large groups with fleeting regularly changing topics, that I feel this way and I dunno how to remedy this...simply I could just have more deep and meanigful conversations but how when people have lives outwith our friendships (that is not a blind statement, but a fact of life that their lives do not revolve around me and they shouldn't) and i have tried just enjoying group conversations and it doesn't work, I just find myself reserving and holding my input back...
My other option is to just enjoy being lonely...but how do I enjoy something that makes me feel miserable, to a point of depression and almost to the point of feeling like my home, my bedroom, my private places are like solitary confinement, a prison cell and I feel like another day alone and I might just snap and go insane...thats how I feel almost, like I am ready for a meltdown...
Please any advice is appreciated! I ain't wanting pity, I want answers..