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I have a problem with anger and trusting other women. I sometimes get so angry that i get a headache, began to cry, throw things, punch things, or blackout (fighting and not remembering exactly what happened).... It has happened to me so many times before when i was younger. I have tried to become a better person and put my past actions behind me. I do well until the same situation keeps popping up and feel like i can take it less and less and then I just explode. I have some type of self control I feel, because everybody always questions me when i do not get mad over the little stuff that they would be upset about. So i know its in me, I just do not know what to do when my patience runs out. My other issue is I do not know exactly how to keep friends. I feel many times I invite someone into my life. I am a very open and honest person upfront. If you ask i will answer type person. A lot of times that "friend" either does something that is shady (that takes away my trust) or when we are having deep conversations they throw my past up or something in my face. So a lot of times I rather just be the loner. I feel like I let a lot of petty stuff past with friends, but after so much petty stuff i explode and decide that I no longer want them in my life and i just stop talking to them. I am not mean to women as friends. I know this issue with trusting others came from my childhood days. I would fully trust someone only for them to stab me in the back. My thing I give my all in my friendships I do not mind helping with anything. I just feel sometimes I have been used, and when I get to that point, I just do not want to deal with that person anymore. Any advice?
