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I have had so many traumatic things happen to me thus far and i need healing and spiritual renewal in my life. I am at the mercy of my mother. She has decided to give up on me and I have no one else in the world willing to see me meet my potential. I am not ready to die. But if someone doesn't step out of their selfishness and help heal what they have harmed then surely i'm not going to live a real life.
I have been molested and subjected to sexual images that i should not have been subjected to. I have been physically abused.
I worked hard to gain some semblance of a normal life and through the hands of men and those who i am now reliant upon they destroyed it and took it away.
I have already lived with this pain for the last 5-6 years and i don't think i can bear it another year when it would be so easy for them to lift a hand and heal
Where is the God of heaven and earth? Where is his healing power? Where is his listening ear? What happen to his love surround the whole earth and sustaining us.
If I die at an early age it is going to be because of the harm and lack of understanding of those closest to me. But I don't want that to happen and this is not God's will. The Lord intends for our lives to be full and long.
But when I reach out for help, saying exactly what i need to survive, I am ignored. Like I am the scum of the earth and an insect gets better care taking than me.
My mother has lied to me and to those around her and it has destroyed my life.
With one streak of faith she could save my life. But at this moment her decision said Ina your life is not valueable enough to me to help you. She knows I need her. She knows it with all her being. She cannot not know it, but she is choosing to disobey God and kill someone else.
I have been molested and subjected to sexual images that i should not have been subjected to. I have been physically abused.
I worked hard to gain some semblance of a normal life and through the hands of men and those who i am now reliant upon they destroyed it and took it away.
I have already lived with this pain for the last 5-6 years and i don't think i can bear it another year when it would be so easy for them to lift a hand and heal
Where is the God of heaven and earth? Where is his healing power? Where is his listening ear? What happen to his love surround the whole earth and sustaining us.
If I die at an early age it is going to be because of the harm and lack of understanding of those closest to me. But I don't want that to happen and this is not God's will. The Lord intends for our lives to be full and long.
But when I reach out for help, saying exactly what i need to survive, I am ignored. Like I am the scum of the earth and an insect gets better care taking than me.
My mother has lied to me and to those around her and it has destroyed my life.
With one streak of faith she could save my life. But at this moment her decision said Ina your life is not valueable enough to me to help you. She knows I need her. She knows it with all her being. She cannot not know it, but she is choosing to disobey God and kill someone else.