PEOPLE ARE EVIL

[asamanthinketh]

since my birth my mother and her family have only cared about themselves and made judgements that have harmed me and are harming me this day

they think that they can abuse me, use me, and I will always be okay. i am a living being with needs and they are so selfish and self-centered and uncaring and liars that they can't even listen to one single thing i tell them that i need

i keep expressing what i need to survive in this world but no one hears me, and they think i am superwoman, invincible and able to withstand anything and everything that comes my way

I am not

And I want them to change. God has been asking them to change, but they do not

And so I am missing out on even the most basic of human freedoms.

They don't even want me alive or see me grow into any kind of person that could live on the earth and be happy and be a blessing to others.

They are so stupid. When I express clearly that I am not well, and how their beliefs and actions have harmed me, they do nothing to heal what they have done. And laaaaa, laaaaa, think everything will be okay. Everything will not be okay.

They are all going to die someday and if i am lucky i will still be alive and i will have to live with the abuse, the neglect, the harm that have done to me, treating me like i don't even live on the earth, that i don't have a brain, or a heart, or a body. They have stopped being human.

And i might not receive healing from the people of the world. I don't have money. This whole time God and me has been revealing to them what they have done and they refuse to repent and do what is right.

This is why i say people are so horrible. I might have been here on the earth for 30 years, but i am not grown, i am like a child inside because i am unloved and mistreated. It could be so easy, but they are so lazy and wicked reveling in their pleasures that they can't even lift a hand or a kind word or deed to see someone else grow up and could be a blessing to them and to others.

They are ignornant beings who have no regard for the works of the Lord. And if there are any good persons left on the earth who truly believe in the Lord and that we are all valuable.

You know my mother thinks I need nothing, she treats me like I am the scum at the bottom of the pond. I see other mothers who help their daughters grow and become something and it is a mutual relationship but she just destroys anything that gets created in me.

 

[princessbella]

ok sweetheart i will say now, you are not responcible for her actions or her repenting, id really like you to read a book called beuty from ashes by joyce meyer, and some books by nicyi cruz bun baby run and soul obsession both of them were a victim of severe physical and mental abuse at the hands of their parent/s, nicky was called the devils child by his mother, their story depended on Gods grac, love e and forgivness and in turn forgiving those whove mistreated them and handing them over to God, God loves you precious, but he can do nothing against a wall of anger pain and biterness, he wants to get through and reach your heart with his love,

beleive me i understand, more than youll know, ive had the same kind of relationship with my parents too , if they refuse to do whats right thats not your responsibility, the hardes thing ive had to do in the last year is look after my father whos hurt me all my life, through his alcoholism in many ways...ive felt like you feel towards your mom, in fact many times ive blamed them for my lack of growth, there comes a time though when you have to decide im responsible for my growth and my life, thats so hard when your feeling in despair and angry...especially if youve got 30 odd years of silence and not feeling listened to, people labeling you as an attention seeker and not really wanting help, this is what i wrote when i was feeling at my worst when i felt isolated and that no one understod me that they were all against me...if you want to pm me feel free , but know there are people who care about you and God can and will be the healer and restorer of your heart and soul if youll let him, he loved you so much, he sent his son to die on the cross, for you, he knew your name back then, and he has plans for you, to give you a hope and a future. lift up your head and look at him, he was beaten , spat at mistreated, , abused misunderstood, unbelivably he said, forgive them father for they know not what they do, his life has brought joy to millions of people, God will use your testimony to reach out to those hurting and in pain if youll let him , what the enemy wants to use for bad and to keep you down, God can and will use for Good, to be a testemony to him .


this is what i wrote
im not always easy to love when im prickly or in a world of my own but will you love me anyway

i may not always have commonsence have your gifts and do things the way you do but will you love me anyway

sometimes i just dont wantt o talk aobut it but will you love me anyway

sometimes ill say im ok when im not cos i dont want you to judge me but will you just love me anyway

sometimes i forget to show thanks and appreciation but will you love me anyway

i find been told my faults difficult cos theres things i find hard to change but will you love me anyway

because of how i am you might think im just a user and attention seeker but will you love me anyway

sometimes i dont always trust people to tell them whats really going on cos ive been hurt and my trust has been broken in the past but will you love and accept me anyway

if ive uninentionally upset and offended you will you forgive me and extend Gods love forgivness and grace

ive not always accepted your help or put it into practice becuase ive struggled to but will you love me anyway

will you walk along side me while Gods sorting me out, dry my tears and pick me up when im weary from the battle


please dont give up