The years have been rough on me, going through severe depression that made me hide away, Gavin anger and pain, that made me push away my family and hurt a lot of people that I love! A lot of people that care for me! Finally in 2014 and the beginning of 2015 everything has been looking up, God is good! Half of my family moved over 1500 miles away! I am here with 2 other siblings and my parents!
On June 15 I will have a place of my own! My parents have always had some control over my actions, my life, and my choices! As I grew up and into a man! I did not like or agree with some of their thinking and we differ and many things! I still love them and it scares me to be alone! They will eventually move! I try so hard to have a relationship with them, just time and again I feel I do something or something always happens and I feel so hurt! They seem like they want to help, but there is always a level of control! I love them dearly, but I just want to break off, yet I need there love!
As an child wants all o have ever wanted was to for them to be proud of me, but as time goes on and I got older all I ever do is let them down and I feel as if I am the black sheep, excluded from many things! And my parents want me to stay In contact after I move! I feel as if it's time to just say goodbye, I thought things would get better, but things don't look so good for the perfect family I always dreamed!
I just really need prayers, prayers for wisdom as I try to let go! My parents took me in when I was young, and took me away from my horrible biological parents who abused me and I owe them so much! I truly love them! I have a wonder girlfriend Who is supportive and wonderful, a true gift from God!
I just really need to move on! And it hurts so bad at times, times like right now!!
On June 15 I will have a place of my own! My parents have always had some control over my actions, my life, and my choices! As I grew up and into a man! I did not like or agree with some of their thinking and we differ and many things! I still love them and it scares me to be alone! They will eventually move! I try so hard to have a relationship with them, just time and again I feel I do something or something always happens and I feel so hurt! They seem like they want to help, but there is always a level of control! I love them dearly, but I just want to break off, yet I need there love!
As an child wants all o have ever wanted was to for them to be proud of me, but as time goes on and I got older all I ever do is let them down and I feel as if I am the black sheep, excluded from many things! And my parents want me to stay In contact after I move! I feel as if it's time to just say goodbye, I thought things would get better, but things don't look so good for the perfect family I always dreamed!
I just really need prayers, prayers for wisdom as I try to let go! My parents took me in when I was young, and took me away from my horrible biological parents who abused me and I owe them so much! I truly love them! I have a wonder girlfriend Who is supportive and wonderful, a true gift from God!
I just really need to move on! And it hurts so bad at times, times like right now!!