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crossfusion

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I haven't been able to control myself lately. I really hate my life right now, and I've never felt as lonely, hurt and more lost than I do now. My parents are good to me and care for me, but I just haven't been able to find the motivation to jump start my life ever since I've graduated college. Things keep happening and I just get discouraged and I just don't see hope anymore. I've made some close friends ever since I've graduated, but there's one that I've gotten real close to. She's an awesome funny kind person, but lately she's gotten into some trouble and she's dissociated herself from many of her friends. I've met her online and I've gotten real emotionally close with her, but I've recently gotten hurt because of that. I don't know if she's talked to many people ever since things have gone downhill for her, but I just can't get her out of my head. I keep trying to talking to her, but she's just changed so much and has been mean to me. I've just had to leave her alone even though it pains me to do so. My relationship is just complicated with her, and I've only felt like I've been a problem for her. I've just really wanted to go back to the way things were with her, because she used to be an awesome close friend that I could rely on and help her out also. Right now it doesn't seem like things will get better and I've kind of just lost hope. I realize I'm too focused on her, but I just can't get her out of my head. Also my granddad is in hospice now, and it's really depressing here. He probably doesn't have much more time left...I've been crying more and I keep having this terrible painful feeling in my chest all the time. I'm not getting anywhere in life, I've lost my best friend, and now I'm about to lose my granddad too. I've only just recently started praying about all of this, and it's helped me feel relieved for a little bit but the pain is still here. It's not easy for me to talk about this either...I'd just appreciate it if you could help pray for me.

EDIT: I just realized I posted this in the wrong section. Can someone please move this to the prayer requests? Thanks
 
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You can ask the admin to move it for you..
btw, I'm so sorry to hear that..
I'm praying for you.. praying for your granddad.. and praying for her too..
maybe listening some sermon or Christian music can help you feel better??
God bless you ;)
 
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Lord Jesus, you are a friend that keeps closer than a brother, we ask that you bless our dear brother with you presence during these trying times. Lord, we also know that you have given each of us the ministry of reconciliation to bring many sons and daughters to glory and we ask that our brother will fill with your power and might to destroy the works of the enemy and to establish your kingdom in their lives. Jesus, your are mighty in battle so we thank you ahead of time for the victory!!!

amen
 
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Lord we pray please take away the pain and suffering of crossfusion and let you bring a shower of blessings and refreshment upon crossfussion. Please bless. In Jesus name, Amen!
 
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Have you noticed that most people who have replied have some years on them? It really doesn't matter much where you post.... it will still get read.
 
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crossfusion

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Willie-T said:
Have you noticed that most people who have replied have some years on them? It really doesn't matter much where you post.... it will still get read.
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I know I just meant for this to be in that section...thank you all for your prayers. At times I'll feel pretty good, but then I get really depressed and scared and lonely later on like right now. I'm so tired of feeling this pain all the time...during the day it's just a numb pain in my chest/heart, but when I'm alone with my thoughts at night it makes me want to die. I'm not suicidal, but I'm so tired of feeling this way.
 
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crossfusion said:
I haven't been able to control myself lately. I really hate my life right now, and I've never felt as lonely, hurt and more lost than I do now. My parents are good to me and care for me, but I just haven't been able to find the motivation to jump start my life ever since I've graduated college. Things keep happening and I just get discouraged and I just don't see hope anymore. I've made some close friends ever since I've graduated, but there's one that I've gotten real close to. She's an awesome funny kind person, but lately she's gotten into some trouble and she's dissociated herself from many of her friends. I've met her online and I've gotten real emotionally close with her, but I've recently gotten hurt because of that. I don't know if she's talked to many people ever since things have gone downhill for her, but I just can't get her out of my head. I keep trying to talking to her, but she's just changed so much and has been mean to me. I've just had to leave her alone even though it pains me to do so. My relationship is just complicated with her, and I've only felt like I've been a problem for her. I've just really wanted to go back to the way things were with her, because she used to be an awesome close friend that I could rely on and help her out also. Right now it doesn't seem like things will get better and I've kind of just lost hope. I realize I'm too focused on her, but I just can't get her out of my head. Also my granddad is in hospice now, and it's really depressing here. He probably doesn't have much more time left...I've been crying more and I keep having this terrible painful feeling in my chest all the time. I'm not getting anywhere in life, I've lost my best friend, and now I'm about to lose my granddad too. I've only just recently started praying about all of this, and it's helped me feel relieved for a little bit but the pain is still here. It's not easy for me to talk about this either...I'd just appreciate it if you could help pray for me.

EDIT: I just realized I posted this in the wrong section. Can someone please move this to the prayer requests? Thanks
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People are praying for you, however, you have a responsibility as well, get rid of this friend who has changed so much, get yourself right with God (start reading your Bible and praying, NOT just about YOUR problems BUT abouts other people's problems), move your mind from yourself to others, ie your grandad and so forth...

Get off your backside and change the things that need changing!
 
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OneWayOnlyJesus

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crossfusion said:
I know I just meant for this to be in that section...thank you all for your prayers. At times I'll feel pretty good, but then I get really depressed and scared and lonely later on like right now. I'm so tired of feeling this pain all the time...during the day it's just a numb pain in my chest/heart, but when I'm alone with my thoughts at night it makes me want to die. I'm not suicidal, but I'm so tired of feeling this way.
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While it may "feel" like it, you are NOT alone. So many believers are experiencing the hopelessness and depression you are. The enemy is ever present to make you feel like this. He is a liar. Satan wants you living by your feelings and emotions... that is where he can take the most advantage of your flesh. The currency of heaven is faith. You just tell the devil he is a liar and that if God be for you, WHO can be against you! Speak the Word to that liar and you will soon see that your feelings will line up with the faith of God that you are cultivating as you speak God's word against that liar. You are not depressed, you are a child of the King! Depression has no place in God's children. But you need to tell the devil that. Next time that "feeling" comes knocking on the door of your heart and those lies enter your head (I am depressed, life is hopeless...), tell God out loud what the devil is telling you and ask God to have Jesus answer the door to your heart for you. Watch how quickly the enemy flees! If God be for you... who can be against you??? No one. No devil, no angel, no demon, no person, no one... nothing. You are the head and not the tail, you are above and not beneath... you are the righteousness of God in Christ. The devil is a liar. Trust God and you will prevail and overcome every obstacle the devil brings your way. Stay focused on God's grace for your life. He loves you and is for you. Always. Be of good cheer, Jesus has overcome the world, so shall you. This too will pass. (Stay out of your feelings and stay in faith!) (Feelings = flesh; Faith = good opinion of God.)
 
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Here's the thing pal: I know your pain VERY well. VERY well. I've been through it.

And I overcame it. And now I am winning at life, and finally experiencing the breakthrough I was looking for.

Let me be perfectly clear:
God alone cant help you. You can pray until your blue in the face...if you dont seek the solutions already provided, God will leave you where you are. He did it to me, and he does it to EVERYONE crying for help...leaves them to suffer while others prosper. It's his signature behavior...negligence.

When I decided to get up off my duff, and seek the solutions necessary, I discovered my way out. Here is what I did, and this will help you too:

1) Develop a reading habit. Not just any books either...but SELF-HELP and IMPROVEMENT books. We're talking guys like Napoleon Hill, Dale Carnegie, John Maxwell, Darren Hardy (Success Magazine), Robert Kiyosaki...some of these men are Christian believers as well, who acknowledge Christ. Study their works. Understand the success principles God weaved into the existence of man, that we ALL FAIL to normally achieve due to our sinful nature. Thanks to Jesus Christ, who died on the cross for our sins, in Christ, we can be made whole, and in ADDITION to repenting and living in him, we can now walk with Jesus to create habits based on principles, and not fall off the wagon into sin. HE WILL NOT GIVE YOU MONEY, EVER...but he WILL be your support as you make the personal changes necessary to utilize God's success laws to make a difference in your life.


2) Supplement. Most of our struggle and depression is due to deficiencies. I take multiple (ORGANIC) vitamins and minerals. A multivitamin to nourish my overall level of health, Vitamin C to detox my body, Vitamin D for calcium, Vitamin B12 for the energy I need to move through my day, Omega-3 and Omega-5 fats for optimal brain activity, Vitamin E for proper digestion...ALL these vitamins and minerals improve health, improve mood, and give you a boost to tackle your day. If you dont have the money to get all these, well....

3) Get off your duff and take action. Action cures fear. If you move, and set a goal to progress your life every day, you'll move forward, and realize that there's a POSITIVE side to free will...where we can CHOOSE the right way to live (it is my opinion God, before Adam and Eve ate the fruit, intended for us to live in POSITIVE all our lives, and because they ate the fruit, negative was born and Satan claimed a stronghold). To take proper action, go back to steps 1 and 2.


I'd throw a pity party for you pal, but I used to do that, and it didn't work. Especially on support forums. Many of these people here are NOT QUALIFIED to get you out of your slump. I GOT OUT OF MINE, and I'm sharing with you how I did it.

Bear in mind, God wont get you out of your slump. He doesn't care. YOU must take initiative, and take the actions to do so. And when you start winning, give a portion of your gains back to the LORD. The LORD is a God of multiplication. If you do nothing, he cant give you nothing, thus leaving you to fend for yourself, which is his favorite thing to do to people. If you give the minimal, he will match the minimal.

IF YOU GIVE MORE, he will GIVE BACK more, up to a sevenfold. It's biblical.

Start with yourself, seek the resources needed to advance, and stay persistent and consistent.
I did it, and if you stay consisent long enough, you will begin to win.

It took me 7 years. It can happen to you sooner. IMPROVE YOURSELF, in health, knowledge, and association, and you WILL see gains. God wont care to help you if you dont help yourself. I have proof of that. I AM proof of that.
 
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crossfusion

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I'm assuming this "funrider" guy finally got banned? His profile picture suited him perfectly for being a wolf in sheep's clothing. My granddad just passed away yesterday, and everyone's just taking it really bad. Things haven't really gotten better with my friend. I believe the real reason she doesn't talk to me is because of something that has happened. I've been helping another one of my friends with her relationship, and the friend that won't talk to me is best friend's with her now ex-boyfriend. I think she's just taken his side of things even though he was the one in the wrong of the relationship (I saw the conversations they had). So she's taken his side I believe which has torn her away from me as a friend since she knows I was helping her out more on the relationship side of things. I now kind of despise both of them, and I still feel myself having strong feelings for her and wanting to try to be friends again. I just don't know how to do that. Going into this further would just be a lot more unnecessary details, and I just don't see my friendship with her going back to how it used to be.
 
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Yes Funrider was a troll, but he left voluntarily. He talks the talk, but neglects to walk the walk. He's not a true christian in any sense of the word. :/


As for your friend, well, sometimes even close relationships end for one reason or another. Just trust that God has something better in mind for all concerned.. :)
 
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crossfusion

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blue_ladybug said:
Yes Funrider was a troll, but he left voluntarily. He talks the talk, but neglects to walk the walk. He's not a true christian in any sense of the word. :/


As for your friend, well, sometimes even close relationships end for one reason or another. Just trust that God has something better in mind for all concerned.. :)
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A year ago I believe God brought a certain girl into my life that has been a true friend to me. Since then I've met other people that I thought were good friends, but they turned out to just be damaging to me. I feel like she's been an angel in disguise, because she's done so much for me. She even happened to see my facebook page before she even knew me. Everything tells me that the choices I've made were for a reason, and I was meant to be put in her path. We're just best friends now. So for now...I'm no longer friends with the person I mentioned in this thread. She hates me and I haven't had any contact with her for more than a month now. I still feel lonely a lot and I don't have much motivation for things. Things to be somewhat better anyways.
 
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Also, this is all happening at once, which means instead of these things which have to happen are only impacting one part of your time and not happening all the time
 
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