Hurting soul....

[Gena_rose]

I've been feeling very depressed lately but I'm not comfortable and scared to talk to anyone . which is why I've come here to ask for help , prayer, anything . I've lost sight of God and strayed away from Him and I don't know how to get back into His word while feeling like this . I'm so lost , scared , angry , at everyone and everything .... I've had a rough childhood from the start , I've been working and taking care of others since I was a kid . I'm so worn out psychically and mentally , I just want to give up . my dad doesn't care for me , my mom's always working I have no friends, no guidance , I'm alone . I Can't feel emotion anymore, all I do is lay in bed . I can't sleep , talk , eat. I feel Dead ........ I'm sorry if my post is hard to read or understand I'm a mess right now and just searching for some prayer/advice .

 

[AngelLove]

Greetings Sister Rose.

I feel thy pain matter fact I'm going through everything you've just mentioned. I wish to help but it would take for me to ask a lot of questions. But since I understand ill try help from my perspective. I'd tell you my problems to show I'm not blowing hot air but I'd just be reflecting your life. I think what you should do is just stop. Everything stop. Take a deep breath and take it one step at a time I know it doesn't make sense but if your mind is overworking as is now you'll die of depression and this is no joke right now you may even consider death much like myself a few weeks ago but don't. The devil is a Liar. And you are a fighter so you fight for your life. Figure out what you can do to keep your mind happy and occupied. Cause sleep will bring you more depression. Find someone to talk to a friend. I work at home so I wouldn't mind talking to you whole day. Find me at xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx or if you'd prefer a female. I could have my girlfriend talk to you. But you need to really have a talk with someone to share your problems and the best part is knowing that person is listening and understands and don't think you're crazy or making an excuse to live life. Cause I had people say all I say to them is just an excuse to go on about life. Find a job go to college bla bla. But please don't give up life is precious. And I can show you how. 1 ignore those who hate you the bible points out "if the world hates you remember that it hated me first" you feel like your life is being torn apart by people... I know. Ill keep it short so you can breathe and read. But let me know. I'm here and not going anywhere.

Regards

 

[Siberian_Khatru]

Can I ask why it is you're afraid to talk with anyone?

 

[Mitchell1989]

I've been in a really bad place before and got myself out of it. I also had a rough childhood, I grew up without a father, and I moved across country as a kid which caused me to lose ALL of my childhood friends.

To heal it took a lot of soul-searching and sifting through my emotions and pain. Ultimately I chose to no longer allow my past experiences and emotions to control my life. I also accepted the fact that my life thus far wasn't the way that I wanted it to be.

Secondly, I asked myself what DID I want for my life and my future. I thought about the things that I believed would bring me happiness, then I made a realistic plan of action to achieve those goals. I haven't achieved many of my goals yet, but I move closer to accomplishing them with each passing day and that makes me happy.

 

[HisHolly]

Unfortunately part of growing up separated from GOD is that we are taught to think for ourselves and plan our lives.. When you said Christ be the Lord of my life, you were then saying you'd find out what He wanted for your life and what He wanted out of it.. Nobody knows happiness or how to find it apart from the creator of it.. Open up his word, let the love in those pages comfort you and strengthen you as you find out where He wants your life to go.. Be blessed

 

[FrimmerStarstone]

Gena_rose, I know things are ruff right now and I know you think that life couldn't get worse,but what you are feeling are the whispers of the devil. And I beg you to turn away from his deceitful an hateful words and turn back to the Lords loving embrace. For he says that he always provides for them that believe in him.

I wish I could be there to comfort you in your time of trouble and you will be in my prayers.

 

[Birdybelle]

Rose, I can understand where you are coming from. I know my childhood wasn't rough but in my teen years things got really bad. I was depressed and I felt like I was just a walking zombie, doing whatever needed to be done.
I agree with the person (sorry I cannot see said users name right now) who said you need to just stop. Stop and give yourself time to relax. And feeling depressed isn't uncommon even in biblical times, read Psalm 42:6, 1 Kings 19:4 Even Jesus was "exceeding sorrowful, even unto death" Matthew 26:38.

I just read a book to help me deal with my own emotional problems. It was given to me by my sunday school teacher and it covers depression. its called Healing for damaged emotions by David Seamands. Try reading it, and keep reading God's word. No one is the better healer and comforter then Jesus Christ.

I'm home almost all day so if you need someone to talk to I'm here.

You'll be in my prayers Rose

 

[MaryGraceRose]

Hi Gena_rose, I'm really sorry for what you're going through and I just want you to know that you are not alone. I know it feels that way sometimes, but there are people who understand and can relate (me being one of them). A couple years ago I was in a really dark place and it felt like God just didn't care about me anymore, but he helped me out of it. He loves you so much, he will never leave you. Even if you feel like you are completely alone, you aren't.
I will definitely pray for you, and if you ever need to just talk to someone you can send me a message.

 

[Sirk]

I've been feeling very depressed lately but I'm not comfortable and scared to talk to anyone . which is why I've come here to ask for help , prayer, anything . I've lost sight of God and strayed away from Him and I don't know how to get back into His word while feeling like this . I'm so lost , scared , angry , at everyone and everything .... I've had a rough childhood from the start , I've been working and taking care of others since I was a kid . I'm so worn out psychically and mentally , I just want to give up . my dad doesn't care for me , my mom's always working I have no friends, no guidance , I'm alone . I Can't feel emotion anymore, all I do is lay in bed . I can't sleep , talk , eat. I feel Dead ........ I'm sorry if my post is hard to read or understand I'm a mess right now and just searching for some prayer/advice .

I am sorry you are hurting. I know what all those feelings hi lighted in black are like.....but my question to you is....are they true? Or are you taking how you "feel" (which is 100% valid btw) as what is true about you and your circumstance?

The reason why I ask that question is because, as important as it is to identify how your heart feels, it is equally if not more important to speak truth to those feelings. You owe it to yourself as a beloved child to care for and nurture your own heart by speaking truth to it.

You could just as easily say to yourself that you are a strong person for stepping up and taking care of others at such a young age when others wouldn't. You can tell yourself that you're not alone and reach out to someone that you trust to share your heart with without them judging you.....and you can tell yourself that you are just going thru a rough emotional time right now but the reality is that it will pass and that you are safe.

 

[cerebellum3]

Hi Gena_Rose, I kind of know what you mean and how you feel since I've in a way been through that before. Gena, I know you feel depressed and alone and you feel like there is no hope, you feel like you're stuck in a black hole with no way out and all you feel is emptiness and despair. I want to tell you that there is only one hope, and it's Jesus Christ. You're never too far to go back to Him, He welcomes you with open and loving arms. I know you don't feel like reading the Bible or praying but that's the only way you'll get out of this, as a matter of fact if you don't read or pray, it will get worse. Sometimes whether we feel like it or not, we have to force ourselves to read the word and force ourselves on our knees. Cry out to Jesus, tell Him EVERYTHING that is going on in your life including exactly how you feel, pray with a sincere and honest heart, believe me, He hears! When you feel like you have no strength left, ask and He will GIVE you strength. Seek Him with all your heart, seek His face and presence continually, go into that prayer closet and cry out to Him! Do not give up, that is EXACTLY what the evil one wants, believe me, he never stops searching for a way to steal you from God, don't let him do that. Be encouraged sister, God hears and knows and He LOVES you more than you can ever imagine! And by the way, when I was going through a time like this, I prayed to God with many tears and agony and begged Him to send a person to help me, I continually prayed about this and He came through! There is a time and place for everything so do not be discouraged if He doesn't answer your prayers right away. And remember, that at the lowest point in your life, God is still high and in this spot of your lowness, His glory and strength will be revealed. God will always pull you out of the darkest and deepest pit, but you have to do your part as well, pray, read, and fast. God bless you!

 

[HisHolly]

how are you doing?
I should have said to listen to some music that reminds you of His love for you.. Nothing to read or do but listen..
Its easy to feel alone and overwhelmed.. Hes here for you tho

Psalm 61
From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed lead me to the rock that is higher than I..

 

[Gena_rose]

thank you so much for your words , i'm sorry i'm barely getting back to you on this . I hope you're doing good and yes it would be great to converse with someone with the same relateable problems and understand what I go through. as I said I hope you're doing good , I saw that you have not logged in awhile but I hope to talk with you soon thank you !

 

[Gena_rose]

Hi Gena_Rose, I kind of know what you mean and how you feel since I've in a way been through that before. Gena, I know you feel depressed and alone and you feel like there is no hope, you feel like you're stuck in a black hole with no way out and all you feel is emptiness and despair. I want to tell you that there is only one hope, and it's Jesus Christ. You're never too far to go back to Him, He welcomes you with open and loving arms. I know you don't feel like reading the Bible or praying but that's the only way you'll get out of this, as a matter of fact if you don't read or pray, it will get worse. Sometimes whether we feel like it or not, we have to force ourselves to read the word and force ourselves on our knees. Cry out to Jesus, tell Him EVERYTHING that is going on in your life including exactly how you feel, pray with a sincere and honest heart, believe me, He hears! When you feel like you have no strength left, ask and He will GIVE you strength. Seek Him with all your heart, seek His face and presence continually, go into that prayer closet and cry out to Him! Do not give up, that is EXACTLY what the evil one wants, believe me, he never stops searching for a way to steal you from God, don't let him do that. Be encouraged sister, God hears and knows and He LOVES you more than you can ever imagine! And by the way, when I was going through a time like this, I prayed to God with many tears and agony and begged Him to send a person to help me, I continually prayed about this and He came through! There is a time and place for everything so do not be discouraged if He doesn't answer your prayers right away. And remember, that at the lowest point in your life, God is still high and in this spot of your lowness, His glory and strength will be revealed. God will always pull you out of the darkest and deepest pit, but you have to do your part as well, pray, read, and fast. God bless you!

I can honestly say I hit rock bottom last year. every passing minute I wanted to die, I saw no hope , I was self destructive and God saved me and gave me hope. i'll be honest it's the hardest thing because I still want to do things my way but reading back on post's like this gives me hope because I don't feel as bad as I was.I still get to feeling this way but not as often as it was I never thought I would get better but God is showing me otherwise . thank you so much for your words and advice I hope you're doing good and God bless !! P.S you said you prayed to God to send someone to help you would you mind telling me a bit about that ?

 

[Gena_rose]

Greetings Sister Rose.

I feel thy pain matter fact I'm going through everything you've just mentioned. I wish to help but it would take for me to ask a lot of questions. But since I understand ill try help from my perspective. I'd tell you my problems to show I'm not blowing hot air but I'd just be reflecting your life. I think what you should do is just stop. Everything stop. Take a deep breath and take it one step at a time I know it doesn't make sense but if your mind is overworking as is now you'll die of depression and this is no joke right now you may even consider death much like myself a few weeks ago but don't. The devil is a Liar. And you are a fighter so you fight for your life. Figure out what you can do to keep your mind happy and occupied. Cause sleep will bring you more depression. Find someone to talk to a friend. I work at home so I wouldn't mind talking to you whole day. Find me at xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx or if you'd prefer a female. I could have my girlfriend talk to you. But you need to really have a talk with someone to share your problems and the best part is knowing that person is listening and understands and don't think you're crazy or making an excuse to live life. Cause I had people say all I say to them is just an excuse to go on about life. Find a job go to college bla bla. But please don't give up life is precious. And I can show you how. 1 ignore those who hate you the bible points out "if the world hates you remember that it hated me first" you feel like your life is being torn apart by people... I know. Ill keep it short so you can breathe and read. But let me know. I'm here and not going anywhere.

Regards

thank you so much for your words , i'm sorry i'm barely getting back to you on this . I hope you're doing good and yes it would be great to converse with someone with the same relateable problems and understand what I go through. as I said I hope you're doing good , I saw that you have not logged in awhile but I hope to talk with you soon thank you !

 

[Wild]

Glad you are better now Gena_rose, remember call upon God in your darkest of times and He will lift you up. Sometimes God uses the darkest hour to call you to Him, because you have nowhere else to turn to. Nothing but the best for you in the future, keep your head up !

 

[Gena_rose]

I am sorry you are hurting. I know what all those feelings hi lighted in black are like.....but my question to you is....are they true? Or are you taking how you "feel" (which is 100% valid btw) as what is true about you and your circumstance?

The reason why I ask that question is because, as important as it is to identify how your heart feels, it is equally if not more important to speak truth to those feelings. You owe it to yourself as a beloved child to care for and nurture your own heart by speaking truth to it.

You could just as easily say to yourself that you are a strong person for stepping up and taking care of others at such a young age when others wouldn't. You can tell yourself that you're not alone and reach out to someone that you trust to share your heart with without them judging you.....and you can tell yourself that you are just going thru a rough emotional time right now but the reality is that it will pass and that you are safe.

my dad left me when I was a baby choosing alcohol over me. My mom is always at work and always has been which i'm forever grateful for. so I never really had my parents as much as I would have liked but I've learned we all have to make sacrifices. saying that I'm a strong person really means a lot to me and I thank you for that. it's hard trying to take care of others when at times I barely feel like I can take care of myself , but you're right I get pretty emotional in rough circumstances but i'm learning to leave it to God and trust in him. I pray to God everyday to help me deal with everything I know i'm in his hands and it's now been about 5 months since this post and reflecting on it is making me realize how much has changed praise God ! thank you again for your words and advice hope you're doing well ! God Bless

 

[Gena_rose]

Hi Gena_rose, I'm really sorry for what you're going through and I just want you to know that you are not alone. I know it feels that way sometimes, but there are people who understand and can relate (me being one of them). A couple years ago I was in a really dark place and it felt like God just didn't care about me anymore, but he helped me out of it. He loves you so much, he will never leave you. Even if you feel like you are completely alone, you aren't.
I will definitely pray for you, and if you ever need to just talk to someone you can send me a message.

Praise God for your outcome, but the wisdom and knowledge that comes with overcoming struggles is something i'm forever thankful for.i'm so glad you you're feeling better it's what you deserve! I know the world can be a really rough place and things can be hard but I thank God for everything I go through knowing there is always a better outcome when I put my trust in him . I hope you're doing good and thank you so much for offering a lending ear God bless !

 

[Gena_rose]

Rose, I can understand where you are coming from. I know my childhood wasn't rough but in my teen years things got really bad. I was depressed and I felt like I was just a walking zombie, doing whatever needed to be done.
I agree with the person (sorry I cannot see said users name right now) who said you need to just stop. Stop and give yourself time to relax. And feeling depressed isn't uncommon even in biblical times, read Psalm 42:6, 1 Kings 19:4 Even Jesus was "exceeding sorrowful, even unto death" Matthew 26:38.

I just read a book to help me deal with my own emotional problems. It was given to me by my sunday school teacher and it covers depression. its called Healing for damaged emotions by David Seamands. Try reading it, and keep reading God's word. No one is the better healer and comforter then Jesus Christ.

I'm home almost all day so if you need someone to talk to I'm here.

You'll be in my prayers Rose

thank you so much for being sweet and offering help I really appreciate it . i'll need to check out that book and yes continue reading God's word and thank you for the advice , God bless !

 

[Gena_rose]

Gena_rose, I know things are ruff right now and I know you think that life couldn't get worse,but what you are feeling are the whispers of the devil. And I beg you to turn away from his deceitful an hateful words and turn back to the Lords loving embrace. For he says that he always provides for them that believe in him.

I wish I could be there to comfort you in your time of trouble and you will be in my prayers.

thank you for your prayers

 

[Gena_rose]

I've been in a really bad place before and got myself out of it. I also had a rough childhood, I grew up without a father, and I moved across country as a kid which caused me to lose ALL of my childhood friends.

To heal it took a lot of soul-searching and sifting through my emotions and pain. Ultimately I chose to no longer allow my past experiences and emotions to control my life. I also accepted the fact that my life thus far wasn't the way that I wanted it to be.

Secondly, I asked myself what DID I want for my life and my future. I thought about the things that I believed would bring me happiness, then I made a realistic plan of action to achieve those goals. I haven't achieved many of my goals yet, but I move closer to accomplishing them with each passing day and that makes me happy.

this post is about 9 months old and it took a couple of more months from now to then for me to really start changing .i'm happy to hear that you got yourself out Praise God . I understand going through the struggle how change and success seems like a "forever never" type of thing it's nice to hear someone with some of the same struggles doing Good. I've been really focusing on myself and becoming the woman that i'm meant out to be , the one God wants me to be and once you ask God to take control of your life instead of wanting to do everything on your own boy be ready lol , God was just waiting for me to surrender to him. someday's my goals seem unattainable but then I realize I am in the hands of a higher power that is more powerful than this world. my God is greater than any struggle. I would like to continue to talk to you and hopefully shoot you a message soon if that's okay?