Once I've found out I've failed, I remembered holding in my swelled up tears and pondering over the question, "Why?"
God knew I tried my very best. He knew I needed this in order to take my first step out there in the real world.
I fasted, prayed, and asked so many family members and friends on CC to keep me in their prayers. Yet, at the end, I only came back with a note that said I've failed.
I started feeling really upset with God until something struck me inside. For some reason, I remembered the last lines I said before ending my prayer the morning before my test.
"I will trust in you, God."
Remembering the words I've told God, I started to feel guilty for doubting and not trusting his purposes. I was contradicting my own words and it made me feel so ashamed of myself. I repented afterwards and decided to write my experience of being a failure on here.
It's okay to fail. Behind every failure, there is always a lesson. Each time you fail, remind yourself of Luke 1:37. The words of the Holy Lamb, and the holy promises of the Lord. For he is a true and faithful God. He will never fail you and wants only the best for your future. He is the creator of this universe and mankind. So, when you feel like how I felt earlier, doubting him during your failures, always remember that doubting is not TRUSTING.
TRUST God by giving him glory and praises even through your roughest and most lowest times. I guarantee you he will bless you multiple folds. For I believe that although I've failed, God will switch the tables around and lead me to success because I am a child of the one true King.
I love you all so much and may god bless you all with this short testimony and the beautiful, small lessons I've learned while walking with Jesus Christ.
Amen.
All Glory goes to God. Hehe.