Hi, I'm a 19-year-old girl and I am going through a very tough time right now. I am depressed and in need of new people to talk to. I came from a broken family and shouldered a lot of responsibilities at a young age. When I was 16, I lost my father to an accident and been cheated on and from then on, I have always felt so insecure and broken. That same year, my boyfriend and I got back together. We were bestfriends and our families were really close. Everyone we know looks up to the kind of relationship we had. He was the reason why I have a closer relationship to God now. Six months ago, my mom was detained due to business-related reasons. She was framed up by her competitors. I decided to stop schooling so we can use my tuition fee for my mom. I used to go to one of the most expensive colleges here in our country. At first my boyfriend was very supportive and so my family love him greatly. But then we had a financial crisis because my mom is the breadwinner. I took her role at home even if I am the youngest. It's really exhausting so most of the time, I am grumpy, lonely and insecure. Two months ago our electricity got disconnected until now. My boyfriend used to visit me as much as he can. But then one day, he started giving me a cold treatment. It's very similar to the way he was when he was cheating on me. I can't help but become paranoid and insecure especially because I am always just at home and didn't feel like sharing to my friends. Then one day, he decided to leave. He said he was too tired and didn't want responsibility anymore. We were together for 5 years. It's been weeks since he broke up with me but I am still in so much pain. I am at my lowest. He is much happier with his life now. I can barely sleep. I've been so dependent on alcohol for weeks. Please don't get me wrong, I am slowly finding my way. I worship and pray for hours each day. I always go to Church even on ordinary days. I have great faith in Him. I am just in so much pain and just so lost right now. I need someone to talk to.