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I do not know anything about missionary work, other than my own presumptions from movies and my imagination, and I have no idea how to go about finding ways to do this as in who to trust and what is most effective and suitable for "my needs"
This is the only community I engage in, unfortunately two annoy with flat earth mostly, but most (all really) of my positive and informative interactions come from here.
So I will attempt to explain why I would like to go down this road of life plus "my needs" and hopefully if anyone would like to give advice or resources I would greatly appreciate.
I am finishing college soon, and I have no interest in getting a job at my local hospital and then using the money from the job and my free time to create a family and try to wait out the apocalypse by being a good church going christian who reads the bible every day and yells at the tv.
I feel like that life would be meaningless and a waste. I am studying "hospital administration", the job is essentially facilitating healthcare treatment between insurance companies(or any funder) and hospitals and the caregivers and the patients. It was the best I could do given my skillet for some kind of meaningful job, but all I will be doing is pushing a pencil and mouse so that people with depression and joint problems get anti-depressant or pain medication or unnecessary x-rays and more and more nonsense.
I think of missionary work as either preaching the Good News to convert or just inform,and or delivering medical care to those in desperate need. I know "hospital administration" is very removed from delivering emergency surgery or even examining someone's health, but I feel like it's something that "has to be done" and since I will have "a bachelors degree" in this field that kind of gets my foot in the door for healthcare, would I be useful in some capacity to missionary work?
I lack the education, understanding, and charisma/character/representative characteristics to represent God and attempt to deliver his message to others. I am loyal to God and have deep faith The Bible is his literal word, Christ is his word, and believe charity is a very and necessary important part in the end times, especially if you have the ability to. I will be guilty if I am not involved with charity work in my life, and I do not see how it would be possible to do charity work in a large capacity unless it was my actual job.
Here are my needs and problems:
1. I spent 8 years obtaining this education, and I need whatever I am doing to keep the degree useful and add to my resume. If the degree sits and isn't used for too long and I'm just handing out water and digging holes, no one will want to hire me when I am 40 and my education will be a waste. I am vain in this regard and my earthly desire to have a mid-class life and salary will only let me do missionary work that uses my bachelor degree to some capacity that will at least allow me to say I did something or anything related so I can have a retirement and life in the future when I want to stop the missionary work.
2. I know that some christian colleges require students to sign oath's that say they won't have premarital relations, drink alcohol, gamble, and engage in other demons and vices. I drink wine 4-5 times a weak to calm my probably ptsd nerves, and I really don't want anyone bothering me at all about my relationships. I'm not promiscuous by anyone's standards, but I'm not comfortable or mature enough to swear an oath to God I won't have sex before marriage. I try to not even lust a woman in my heart anymore because I agree with God it isn't healthy, but I am unwilling to feel pressured to get married so I can have sex.
For those reasons I'm not fit to preach or represent the Gospel, but I still would like to give whatever skill this college is educating me in and whatever fortitude I gained in the military to God's mission rather than handing out pain medication and scheduling knee surgeries. I think I am very good at reaching out to unbelievers and giving them different ways to think about things that challenge their lack of faith. I would like to have a job where I could engage people like this while actually providing a needed service, but I cannot swear or sign oaths that say I have never sinned or will never sin again.
Is it possible for me to do missionary work helping the poor and sick, and at the end of my work day no one cares If I drink 4 glasses of wine or have intimacy with someone I love? I will sleep outside on the ground for very little money, but I can't pretend I'm a perfect person for the mission and unbelievers.
This is the only community I engage in, unfortunately two annoy with flat earth mostly, but most (all really) of my positive and informative interactions come from here.
So I will attempt to explain why I would like to go down this road of life plus "my needs" and hopefully if anyone would like to give advice or resources I would greatly appreciate.
I am finishing college soon, and I have no interest in getting a job at my local hospital and then using the money from the job and my free time to create a family and try to wait out the apocalypse by being a good church going christian who reads the bible every day and yells at the tv.
I feel like that life would be meaningless and a waste. I am studying "hospital administration", the job is essentially facilitating healthcare treatment between insurance companies(or any funder) and hospitals and the caregivers and the patients. It was the best I could do given my skillet for some kind of meaningful job, but all I will be doing is pushing a pencil and mouse so that people with depression and joint problems get anti-depressant or pain medication or unnecessary x-rays and more and more nonsense.
I think of missionary work as either preaching the Good News to convert or just inform,and or delivering medical care to those in desperate need. I know "hospital administration" is very removed from delivering emergency surgery or even examining someone's health, but I feel like it's something that "has to be done" and since I will have "a bachelors degree" in this field that kind of gets my foot in the door for healthcare, would I be useful in some capacity to missionary work?
I lack the education, understanding, and charisma/character/representative characteristics to represent God and attempt to deliver his message to others. I am loyal to God and have deep faith The Bible is his literal word, Christ is his word, and believe charity is a very and necessary important part in the end times, especially if you have the ability to. I will be guilty if I am not involved with charity work in my life, and I do not see how it would be possible to do charity work in a large capacity unless it was my actual job.
Here are my needs and problems:
1. I spent 8 years obtaining this education, and I need whatever I am doing to keep the degree useful and add to my resume. If the degree sits and isn't used for too long and I'm just handing out water and digging holes, no one will want to hire me when I am 40 and my education will be a waste. I am vain in this regard and my earthly desire to have a mid-class life and salary will only let me do missionary work that uses my bachelor degree to some capacity that will at least allow me to say I did something or anything related so I can have a retirement and life in the future when I want to stop the missionary work.
2. I know that some christian colleges require students to sign oath's that say they won't have premarital relations, drink alcohol, gamble, and engage in other demons and vices. I drink wine 4-5 times a weak to calm my probably ptsd nerves, and I really don't want anyone bothering me at all about my relationships. I'm not promiscuous by anyone's standards, but I'm not comfortable or mature enough to swear an oath to God I won't have sex before marriage. I try to not even lust a woman in my heart anymore because I agree with God it isn't healthy, but I am unwilling to feel pressured to get married so I can have sex.
For those reasons I'm not fit to preach or represent the Gospel, but I still would like to give whatever skill this college is educating me in and whatever fortitude I gained in the military to God's mission rather than handing out pain medication and scheduling knee surgeries. I think I am very good at reaching out to unbelievers and giving them different ways to think about things that challenge their lack of faith. I would like to have a job where I could engage people like this while actually providing a needed service, but I cannot swear or sign oaths that say I have never sinned or will never sin again.
Is it possible for me to do missionary work helping the poor and sick, and at the end of my work day no one cares If I drink 4 glasses of wine or have intimacy with someone I love? I will sleep outside on the ground for very little money, but I can't pretend I'm a perfect person for the mission and unbelievers.