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Hi, we both met as Christians.
but I don't think we placed God at the center.
Yes I have told a few of my frienda.
Even though my words are few, thank you for the encouragement and willingness to share.
I cry sometimes, but I have obligations to the workplace and to my family. So I feel like a burst of emotions that I have to suppress a little. It's okay, I want God to be the one that deals with it too, it would just help if the pain went away as well.
The first day was shock, the second day was a huge devastation, today I am still holding fast into the Lord.
I would want to pray for God to give me an opportunity to be a better person to everyone. To have wisdom on when to be firm or when to turn the other cheek. To have compassion for those who have suffered the things I have (not necessarily relationship matters), and to be wholly loving and humble in all my ways.
I want God to be present in this person's life. To pour in him an abundance of Love and understanding of His grace and mercies. I want him to experience God. I want a chance to apologize for the way I make him feel or for not being a good support., I want a chance to be that support and truly put the person I love before myself. And I know this is just what I want. But I would like to pray for it.
Perhaps overtime God would place what he wants in me, I would like that too.
But this is how I feel now. Where I am at now. Perhaps it seems selfish to some of you. But these are the deep cries in my heart.
but I don't think we placed God at the center.
Yes I have told a few of my frienda.
Even though my words are few, thank you for the encouragement and willingness to share.
I cry sometimes, but I have obligations to the workplace and to my family. So I feel like a burst of emotions that I have to suppress a little. It's okay, I want God to be the one that deals with it too, it would just help if the pain went away as well.
The first day was shock, the second day was a huge devastation, today I am still holding fast into the Lord.
I would want to pray for God to give me an opportunity to be a better person to everyone. To have wisdom on when to be firm or when to turn the other cheek. To have compassion for those who have suffered the things I have (not necessarily relationship matters), and to be wholly loving and humble in all my ways.
I want God to be present in this person's life. To pour in him an abundance of Love and understanding of His grace and mercies. I want him to experience God. I want a chance to apologize for the way I make him feel or for not being a good support., I want a chance to be that support and truly put the person I love before myself. And I know this is just what I want. But I would like to pray for it.
Perhaps overtime God would place what he wants in me, I would like that too.
But this is how I feel now. Where I am at now. Perhaps it seems selfish to some of you. But these are the deep cries in my heart.