For some years now, I have tired myself out..
I get inpatience for waiting for love-and I find someone who i get a crush on, like meeting online, online dating.
I get addicted to that one person, texting, all day is mostly thinking about that one person.
Been talking to this girl for 2 months now online, she lives in Canada- we used to be online friends 6 years ago.
I enjoy talking to her. But I have hard time with thoughts sometimes, she is very open and speaks about how she uses tinder and last guy she slept with was from there, and how she did sexual stuff to another guy in a cinema and abonded places at the mall. I know its not very healthy, but I get jealous cause I feel like I am missing out. It makes me like suicidal not gonna lie (i would never do anyting) but I get very depressed thoughts "what is the point"
What i try to say is, I get feelings too fast when I talk to people on phone, even though I havent met them yet.
I have fear of abondment, and attachment, so meanwhile that I text this girl-thinking about her, I just stay in my room all day, and dont see anyone, dont meet new people, dont go anywhere.
maybe I just wanted this off my chest, cause I feel it suffocating me. so im sorry i'm stuck in my teenage years being 22.
I get inpatience for waiting for love-and I find someone who i get a crush on, like meeting online, online dating.
I get addicted to that one person, texting, all day is mostly thinking about that one person.
Been talking to this girl for 2 months now online, she lives in Canada- we used to be online friends 6 years ago.
I enjoy talking to her. But I have hard time with thoughts sometimes, she is very open and speaks about how she uses tinder and last guy she slept with was from there, and how she did sexual stuff to another guy in a cinema and abonded places at the mall. I know its not very healthy, but I get jealous cause I feel like I am missing out. It makes me like suicidal not gonna lie (i would never do anyting) but I get very depressed thoughts "what is the point"
What i try to say is, I get feelings too fast when I talk to people on phone, even though I havent met them yet.
I have fear of abondment, and attachment, so meanwhile that I text this girl-thinking about her, I just stay in my room all day, and dont see anyone, dont meet new people, dont go anywhere.
maybe I just wanted this off my chest, cause I feel it suffocating me. so im sorry i'm stuck in my teenage years being 22.