I pulled a knife on somebody, please help.

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Brandon777

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I need prayer. I'm bipolar and I recently pulled a knife on somebody during a period where my doctor misdiagnosed my medication. Now that I'm taking the right medication, I could still go to jail for many years.
 

grace

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My former husband is bi-polar. He did something very similiar in January. (he is currently being charged with Criminal Battery) He could go to jail too. (he has never been on medication though..he refuses to take it.)

Please be very vigilant with your health. If/when doctors want to change your medication...have them explain to you why. Pay close attention to yourself while on any of your medications (even if there has not been a medication change in awhile)....any slight mood change or sleep pattern change, appetite change etc....notify your doctors immedietly.

Best to you
 
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Heart-of-Hearts

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dont worry if u trust god he will take care of u
 
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kenneth2816

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I don't know your age or other details. Let me say however that unless you have a prior history of things like this, it is doubtful you will actually serve time. You did not say you actually inflicted injury, so I am assuming you did this in a sort of rage, and though while very serious, your attorney most likley will solicit a medical opinion about the medication mix up. Judges have seen this a thousand times before and you may get probation and court ordered anger management or something, but again, if this is a first offense, I would not be overly concerned.

Have you yet spoken to an attorney: If you haven't I suggest you attempt to enroll in an anger class on your own which shows good judgement and true remorse, instead of waiting on the court to order it.

Best of luck, we all make mistakes.
 
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REDMama

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Dear Young Man,

I am guessing you are worried and concerned about going to jail, maybe a little fearful, sorrowful, confused, or not wanting to screw up your future and dreams and goals. Well, it is not the end of the world, and I will tell you why. Be thankful you are breathing and eating and have other freedom, if you do. The freedom to walk and stand when you want. And other things you know.

I myself have spent time in prison. 113 days to be exact, and it is horrible, it is suffering unless you like it. Do you remember learning about the Nazi Concentration Camps, in High School History, and the suffering they went through. Well, that is what it it feels like. The police and correctional officers have no compassion. Yes, some do, but it is rare to find one who cares that you survive.

What determines if you are sent to jail or not? And do you not have anyone to talk to in your family or friends, and that is the reason you are posting here?

But you know, one lesson I did learn in jail, is more self-discipline. If you want a good and bright future, you have to make it. There are very bad things in this world, people, drugs, others motivations. You have to be strong.

I am not judging, you will find those in this world who want to live different lifestyles and God gives us the free will, but when your free will starts to mess up too many lives on this earth, God intervenes, and that point you better be scare, I know.

So, do what you can to talk to whomever to try and show why you should not and don't want to be in jail.

If they do make the decision to commit you to prison, there are good things about it, depending on the luxuries you have now in the free world. You are provided three nutritious meals each day. You are warm or cool depending on the season. You have bible studies, and other classes, such as job training, gym/exercise, the library, and art.

So, think about it. It is difficult to survive in this world, especially for those of us who have many challenges, and barriers to meeting our most basic needs to earn an income, be loved, and safe.

Prison also is not all safe. You can get hurt in there.

Just as my probation officer said to me, you were aware that the crime you commmited could send you to jail. So, were you aware when you decided to threaten or hurt someone, that you may go to jail. Sure, you may not have been thinking about it, but we all know certain things are wrong.

If you don't want to be a criminal or a murderer and have that be your life, it is no fun. Then understand or get someone to help you understand how to cope better with why you wanted to hurt them. Because people really do deserve to be hurt in my opinion in this world, but you should learn to show them they are rude, ignorant, annoying you, or disrespecting you, (if that was the case), in another more healthy and legal and christian way.

And if they don't listen, well then you have to move on, or get in trouble.

I hope I have not said too much. You ask, and I respond, just as well as the others who responded to your concern did.

And it is sad, when you want to get your life together and on a different track, police, even your parents, who are supposed to be encouraging and supportive will not help you, and often be a negative, ungodly influence in your life. They don't do their jobs, and lie about what they really are supposed to be doing. Correctional officers are a big joke. They get paid, but then do nothing, except torture you.

So, I really do pray you do not have to go to jail. You sound like you shouldn't.

God Bless You with strength and good decision making.

RETHINKING FAILURE

"Do not fear mistakes. There are none." (Miles Davis)

"Only those who dare to fail greatly can ever achieve greatly" (Robert F. Kennedy)

"Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently" (Henry Ford)

"Fall seven times, stand up eight." (Japanese Proverb)
 
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astro

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Brandon,

if you pull knives on people because you feel like it, you should be in prison with the rest of all the dangerous violent people.
Go ahead and blame the doctor and your medication , for your own personal failure.
 
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Brandon,

if you pull knives on people because you feel like it, you should be in prison with the rest of all the dangerous violent people.
Go ahead and blame the doctor and your medication , for your own personal failure.
Wow ...just ...wow! 0_o
 
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Brandon,

if you pull knives on people because you feel like it, you should be in prison with the rest of all the dangerous violent people.
Go ahead and blame the doctor and your medication , for your own personal failure.
Do you actually know anything about Bipolar disorder?

Brandon, it is not your fault, bad things can happen when not on the right medication..
I also have Bipolar disorder . If you need to talk do not hesitate to send a pm.
 
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Brandon,

if you pull knives on people because you feel like it, you should be in prison with the rest of all the dangerous violent people.
Go ahead and blame the doctor and your medication , for your own personal failure.
You're an idiot. And insensitive ignorant idiot.
 
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wwjd_kilden

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Praying that the judge understands the situation and that it won't happen again.
 
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ASK

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You're an idiot. And insensitive ignorant idiot.
I have to throw the word insensitive back at you. Brandon did have a choice in the matter.

I'm sorry you're in such a bad place right now Brandon. I have been praying for you. We all make mistakes, thankfully forgiveness is one prayer away:)
 
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Psalm2713

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Brandon ... this has nothing to do with this thread.... It seems like a revelation of some sort ... you are young man God has a huuuge plan with... I mean, I know God is going to use you in the most incredible ways .,.. brother .. so way to go!!!
Blessings,
Sister in Christ.
 
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Brandon777

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I'm often a self-condemning, critical person. Believe me, that I've considered that frank truth fully. Yet at the same time there's no questioning I was completely delusional when it happened. My motive for pulling the knife was crazed frustration with life circumstances that were simply not true. For weeks proceeding this happening I believed I was betrayed by all my friends and that my mom wanted to rape me, my dad was a warlock and my sister was a witch. And I thought I was a psychic prophet. I was speaking with others (myself) in my head for some weeks and I thought Britt Nicole was going to marry me and then she broke it off; I'm convinced now that some of the voices I was hearing were that of a demon. And right after I lost Britt Nicole's engagement through telepathy, a new girl wanted to marry me. And so after I was excited about that, ______ (he will remain nameless) takes her away from me while I was in this state. I'd be stressed out for thinking everyone but God abandoned me and now this, I couldn't take it any more. I went for my knife and put it to my wrist frantically. The tension was so great I felt like I was going to burst and break down at the same time. Then I thought about it some more and I said to myself, with all the Bible knowledge and zeal I have for God, I could do more good to this world by staying alive. I never planned on killing _______ or even wounding ______. As far as me having a choice in the matter... yes, but less of one because of the impulsivity that comes with bipolar as a physiological disease.
 
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Ramon

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Brandon,

if you pull knives on people because you feel like it, you should be in prison with the rest of all the dangerous violent people.
Go ahead and blame the doctor and your medication , for your own personal failure.
You are off and full of poison.
 
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Brandon777

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Thank you for the support (frankiengirls), advice (grace, kenneth), encouragement (psalm) and prayers (ask, wwjd). Heart of hearts.. may I suggest a response a little bit less generic. I pray for all who read this, more so to those who responded and even more so to those who blessed God with their time on this site. :) Blessings, thanks for listening!
 
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Ramon

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I'm often a self-condemning, critical person. Believe me, that I've considered that frank truth fully. Yet at the same time there's no questioning I was completely delusional when it happened. My motive for pulling the knife was crazed frustration with life circumstances that were simply not true. For weeks proceeding this happening I believed I was betrayed by all my friends and that my mom wanted to rape me, my dad was a warlock and my sister was a witch. And I thought I was a psychic prophet. I was speaking with others (myself) in my head for some weeks and I thought Britt Nicole was going to marry me and then she broke it off; I'm convinced now that some of the voices I was hearing were that of a demon. And right after I lost Britt Nicole's engagement through telepathy, a new girl wanted to marry me. And so after I was excited about that, ______ (he will remain nameless) takes her away from me while I was in this state. I'd be stressed out for thinking everyone but God abandoned me and now this, I couldn't take it any more. I went for my knife and put it to my wrist frantically. The tension was so great I felt like I was going to burst and break down at the same time. Then I thought about it some more and I said to myself, with all the Bible knowledge and zeal I have for God, I could do more good to this world by staying alive. I never planned on killing _______ or even wounding ______. As far as me having a choice in the matter... yes, but less of one because of the impulsivity that comes with bipolar as a physiological disease.
I am going to be praying my friend. The Lord will deliver you from this. JESUS CHRIST WILL DELIVER YOU!! HE WILL DESTROY THE DEVOUR FOR YOUR SAKE!!!

My friend this is a demonic attack. Do you know any elders in your Church? Bipolar is an evil spirit. I am so glad that I am learning about this. My friend Jesus will deliver you. He will destroy the chains of this enemy. As sure as I pray. Pray with me my friend. AND ANYONE ELSE WHO UNDERSTANDS.

May Jesus bless you.
 
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kenneth2816

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Thank you for the support (frankiengirls), advice (grace, kenneth), encouragement (psalm) and prayers (ask, wwjd). Heart of hearts.. may I suggest a response a little bit less generic. I pray for all who read this, more so to those who responded and even more so to those who blessed God with their time on this site. :) Blessings, thanks for listening!
brother, I for one would appreciate yoou kepping us updated. I say this because I love you as a brother and want to see your situation turn around and see god glorified.
 
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princessbella

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Ramon be careful when saying it is an evil sprit , while that may contribute, we are made up of body mind and sprit, body , and there may be some emotional healing from the past needed as well as spiritua or conected to social, family circumstances what need some councelingl. . It is known people who experience berevment can hear voices. .While deliverence , praying and dealing with an evil spirit can have a purpose dont discount that.

Brandon i think it was incredibly brave of you to be able to open up about this and im pretty sure this thread will give other people courage too and see their not alone.. I pray God be with you and guide you through this your not alone

princess
 
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Psalm2713

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I will also be praying for you Brandon.....
frankeisten ... I think what Ramon meant is that you can be delivered from it, it's good to have believers/ friends lay hands on you and pray for you... in Jesus' name and you can indeed be free of it.. :)