Hey there. I was raised in a Christian environment my whole life, but I never had a real relationship with God. In my junior year of high school my grandparents died and they were like second parents to me, and I became very angry with God, blaming him and not wanting anything of him anymore. That was in 2003. I finally took the leap of faith in May 2008. I got plugged into this church my aunt was going to, they were very welcoming and friendly people. This girl Jessica befriended me right away and about a month and a half later after a church service I was driving home and broke down in my car and ask God to come into my heart, haven't been the same since. It's been an amazing journey and transformation since then. I'm still growing in the Lord, but that's the thing it takes time. A lot of people believe that when they become a Christian all their problems are suddenly going to disappear and when they don't, the people don't know how to deal with it and backslide. You're still going to have troubles. The Bible even says that the Christian road is narrow and often hard, but the end result is worth it. I just want to let you know, beings you are having conflicting thoughts about becoming a Christian that, yes, you should do it if you feel it in your heart. After you make the decision God is going to transform your mind, heart, and the way you react to things, people, and places. It will be so life-changing. The best decision I've ever made. He teaches you how to get through the struggles and have faith that everything is going to work out in the end. If you need healing from past hurts, he heals you. If you need to forget past failures, sins, and anything else, God is going to work with you through it every step of the way. Um, if you need someone to talk to, ever, I'm here. Remember Jesus loves you no matter who you are or what you've done and God bless. I will keep you in my prayers.
Love always,
Tiffany
