MY ADDICTION

[auburn_gurl]

"my addiction"
My depression
Gets deeper and
All I wish for
Is the feel of
The cool blade
Against my skin
Almost every
Night I
Give in to
My addiction
My life
Falls apart
Around me
And all I need
Is a way
To escape
As the blade
Makes cuts
I feel the pain
Come off of
My heart
And I no
Longer
Feel what
He did to me
But the pain
Only lasts
For a few
Minutes
So I give in
And make more
Cuts to feel
Relieved
Everybody sees
A girl with
A smile
Spread on
Her face
And they
Think
She's back
To normal
But no
I am not
Okay
I am far from it
My addiction
Proves that
I sit up
Late at night
Crying
And that's
When I pull out
The blade
And I make the
Cuts
Then I fall asleep
With my pillow
Full of
My tears
They think
I've stopped
But it's only
Gotten worse
I can't even
Look at myself
In the mirror
It hurts to
Look back at
Myself with
A smile spread
Right on my face

 

[torotoro]

pretty intense, did you write it yourself?

 

[SethSethSeth]

"my addiction"
My depression
Gets deeper and
All I wish for
Is the feel of
The cool blade
Against my skin
Almost every
Night I
Give in to
My addiction
My life
Falls apart
Around me
And all I need
Is a way
To escape
As the blade
Makes cuts
I feel the pain
Come off of
My heart
And I no
Longer
Feel what
He did to me
But the pain
Only lasts
For a few
Minutes
So I give in
And make more
Cuts to feel
Relieved
Everybody sees
A girl with
A smile
Spread on
Her face
And they
Think
She's back
To normal
But no
I am not
Okay
I am far from it
My addiction
Proves that
I sit up
Late at night
Crying
And that's
When I pull out
The blade
And I make the
Cuts
Then I fall asleep
With my pillow
Full of
My tears
They think
I've stopped
But it's only
Gotten worse
I can't even
Look at myself
In the mirror
It hurts to
Look back at
Myself with
A smile spread
Right on my face

I understand how you feel. The world can be Harsh.

 

[kaffeine]

remember god said you are not to mark you body and to love your neighbor as yourself. what is not possible for man is possible with god. know that jesus can heal you. i hope the best for you. love you. bless you.

 

[auburn_gurl]

yes i did write it myself...

 

[torotoro]

for the longest time I thought of poetry as having to rhyme, but I think now it's more about how the words can create different images and feelings. Your poetry is nice.

 

[auburn_gurl]

the poetry i write is expressing how i feel...its how i vent sometimes....to me poetry comes from the heart...and have alot of meaning behind the poem itself

 

[torotoro]

ohhh, ok, so going behind the poem, it's talking about an ex boyfriend or a guy that hurt you alot, so to cope with the emotional pain you replace it with physical pain which gives you some comfort since it's more bearable than the pain you feel in your heart??? Did I get anything right?

 

[auburn_gurl]

yes you got it all right except the part of who i was hurt by....it was not a b/f...i mean yeah ive been hurt before by guys but its not that kind of hurt...it was in reference to my dad...hes the one who hurt me..most of these poems are in reference to him

 

[torotoro]

ohhh, yeah, I should have guessed that. Dads can be very hurtful.

 

[sad_angel]

they are all really good.