Okay so I've had a christian boyfriend for 2 years and a half and we never had sex. I was feeling that it was the right thing. Then we broke up cause things went bad, and I met another guy. The moment I saw him, I knew there was something between us. He says he felt the same way. So as I met this guy in another city where I came back 2 months later to move in for good, we were keeping in touch through texts and facebook everyday while we were away for 2 months. He was the most lovey-dovey guy ever and told me he was waiting for me which was cute. Then I moved here and in his head, waiting for marriage wasn't even applying. But I wouldnt care cause (despite my beliefs) I really felt like it was natural with him. Ive never had strong feelings for anyone else before (not even my ex boyfriend). So I lost my virginity to him. Since then, he acts weird, and weve seen each other only 4 times and had sex 3 out of 4 times (several times a date). And everytime it would feel good until that one last time (last night). I will skip the details but we both decided to have it rough, so we did and it felt great. But this morning I woke up, my whole body was sore. I swear, every part of it. To this time I still feel dizzy and weird.So he told me we would stop doing that. But today I just realized that it wasn't the right thing and that I should stop having sex asap. I saw my pain as a punition from God (seriously). And I don't wanna do it anymore.
SO, as i still like this guy, I always have bad feelings about him since I moved here. He did nothing wrong but it's just intuition. And this morning, when I refused to have sex again cause I was feeling sick, he was like "don't make me rape you!!" I know it probably was a joke but I felt bad about it
And I feel like somethings wrong with this guy and I think he fakes his interest. While we were apart he would always tell me that he liked me everyday and things like "i wanna use the L word but im not gonna yet". And now I'm here, when I ask him if he likes me, instead of saying "yea" he's like "what makes you say that?" and he doesnt tell me "i like you" out of the blue anymore.
Most of the time hes soo caring and sweet, but he also acts strange like this. So I think he fakes, and uses me for sex and pretends he's interested just so I don't see through his game.
He told me he never really had a girlfriend and had sex only once, so it makes me feel more like hes interested in having a girl who likes him and to have sex with instead of ME.
I've tried to push those feelings away everytime cause I still like him alot. But I feel so bad about him??
Please I don't want answers like "break up", I want more encouraging answers to make me think through if I should leave him or not. Thank you!
PS: everytime we have sex, he doesnt text me for hours afterwards. I told him I would feel used when it happens and he said that it was because he didn't wanna be clingy and that he would stop, but again he did it and left me without a goodnight. help?
