I agree with emz1066... God wants an intimate relationship with u. That doesn't involve feeling obligated to do this or that... That's the way of the Old, the Law, not the New, grace which we r saved. Share your heart,.. The good, bad and ugly. God will always love u the same as everyone else... He's completely equal and just. Our God reacts with love, grace and forgiveness all the time through eternity. He never changes, so may I encourage u to sit at Jesus' feet and start asking questions and listening with ur heart... He wants to show u the way to have the most alive experience of Christ and the Kingdom, right here and now, as He shapes u more into the godly image of Christ He has called u and all of us into. Just enjoy who He is and has to offer through the Holy Spirit (Galatians 5--fruits of Spirit)
Now, must I share the passions of my heart through this passage of scripture...
Now we ask you, brothers and sisters, to acknowledge those who work hard among you, who care for you in the Lord and who admonish you. Hold them in the highest regard in love because of their work. Live in peace with each other. And we urge you, brothers and sisters, warn those who are idle and disruptive, encourage the disheartened, help the weak, be patient with everyone. Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always strive to do what is good for each other and for everyone else. Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus. Do not quench the Spirit. Do not treat prophecies with contempt but test them all; hold on to what is good, reject every kind of evil. May God himself, the God of peace, sanctify you through and through. May your whole spirit, soul and body be kept blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it. (1 Thessalonians 5:12-24 NIV)
God Bless!